I probably shouldn't have gone to Syracuse today. I should have stayed in and did homework. Because looking at the pile of things I have to do is kind of taking me to the verge of freaking out, and that's not something I have time to do.

I am not too worried about the French test-- we played a conjugating game on the board Wednesday and I got every one of mine right-- and I'm not really worried about the Logic test-- although I'm not sure I'll remember that a strong argument doesn't depend on the factuality of the premises-- but I am kind of worried about EdPsych because I missed it on Wednesday and the person I was going to ask for the homework assignment today wasn't in class, so I'm going to be behind, and I already came into the class behind, and I just don't know if I'll ever catch up and it's really worrying me. And I don't know what scares me so badly-- the professor is a super nice guy, and I think I'm understanding the material all right, I just. I don't know. I'm terrified of doing badly to the point where I'm too scared to do anything at all, which is a sure-fire failure.

Anyways. Today was good. I got my hair cut, I got put back on Aplenzin, I got to spend a lot of time with Felix and Julia, it was good. I spent the past hour and a half hanging out with Felix and Barry and Maggie, and that was good too. I need to focus on the good stuff and not the stuff that makes me want to cry, because crying sucks and I don't have time to waste on it. I'm going to finish my EdPsych summary, then I'm going to take a shower, and I'm going to wake up early tomorrow morning and make sure I have this French stuff absolutely down (she's making us write dialogues, I still suck at vocabulary, I'm not optimistic about that portion of the test) and then revise a little more before lunch for Logic and hope I'm not walking blind into yet another test in EdPsych. Because three tests in one day would try me to the breaking point, I think.

Barry gave me an awesome shoulder rub at lunch today and all this worrying has put me right back to tense. Weak.

Anyone who wants to be fantastic should leave me pictures of baby animals so I have something cute to start my day with.