Lol, I'm trying to figure out where I should start. Well, just the big things then, re-capping:
I got my bachelor's in art, and spent the last semester of my 'college career' in Scotland. It was amazing, and I grew leaps and bounds into myself, for such a short period of time abroad. I wish I could do it again, because I was still too far in my shell to take advantage of everything... been stuck in the good ol' midwest since then, and it sucks.
As for the art degree, all it's ever gotten me are the replied phrases from nearly everyone I talk to:
"Well why don't you be an art teacher?" or "LOLOLOLOLOLOL" >_<
Took some time to figure out what I want from religion, and am firmly entrenched in being a somewhat-practicing general heathen. Christ, that doesn't say anything, does it?
I believe that there are cosmic influences in our lives to varying degrees, and I choose to acknowledge them as the Lady and Lord. However, the two abstractions are really one being, with feminine dominance... I don't follow any specific teachings, and while I feel compelled to go to group meetings in the area, I've heard that most of the people are fairly old women who are stodgy in their beliefs. I'm really more of a, "I'm gonna go meditate over here-- no, no, that's cool, I don't need to wave a knife around to pray" kind of person. Also, I did try to go once and they fucking hide where their meetings are and never found them -_-+
Um... pretty much am broke, working temp jobs, slowing losing the ability to communicate with others because I've been working a factory job too long and have literally been going STUPID. Still living at home, despairing of never being self-sufficient enough to leave.
I'm going back to school this fall to pursue a biology bachelor's, in the vain hope it might get me a stable job and/or the promise of money some day. I would like to get a concentration in food science, since nutrition research is a small obsession with me, but I would have to go to the capital for that and might not be able to handle all those loans.
I still want to make comics, but I'm too sensible to throw my all into it... I need some steady income, and freelance ain't it. I'm also not good enough to make a living off of it. Maybe in time I would be, but growing older has made me unable not to be practical.
I've been with my boyfriend for two and a half years now, and he's been an amazing influence on my confidence and my insanity. He's healed a lot of old wounds from childhood, and pretty much just from being a goof-ball and a great person. In a lot of ways, we're more of best friends than lovers, and while I would never cheat on him I do feel myself more and more drawn into the desire to find myself a sexy lady, and at the very least flirt shamelessly. Perhaps its just boredom with my life in general.
I don't like labels, but they can be helpful, and I am most comfortable with the term 'queer' (a la DAR!) as my subconscious leaning is towards women but in the end it's the person I want and the body doesn't matter.
I am bored nearly all the time, thus, I am boring, and it hurts. I have given up sugar (and thus, booze --most of the time) and in the job search stopped smoking delicious things. It's been about 9 months now, that I am almost always sober (UGH). I am sorely tempted to break that fast tonight, as I'm going back to school soon and fuck if they care what I do.
Let's see... I think that's about all I can think of right now. Oh, one last thing. I am seriously considering looking around my area for sub/Dom peoples. For a while there, I didn't feel the pull towards it, and assumed maybe I was growing out of it. Turns out, no, I'm just cyclical, and I think about it nearly all the time. Dave says I'm a Switch, and that sounds right to me, but at this point I want so badly to sink my teeth into someone and shape their world... I'm discussing the possibility of my 'going out to play with others' with the bf, as he's about as vanilla as I think you can get so I'll not ask anything of him, but I have no idea how it will all play out...
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I got my bachelor's in art, and spent the last semester of my 'college career' in Scotland. It was amazing, and I grew leaps and bounds into myself, for such a short period of time abroad. I wish I could do it again, because I was still too far in my shell to take advantage of everything... been stuck in the good ol' midwest since then, and it sucks.
As for the art degree, all it's ever gotten me are the replied phrases from nearly everyone I talk to:
"Well why don't you be an art teacher?" or "LOLOLOLOLOLOL" >_<
Took some time to figure out what I want from religion, and am firmly entrenched in being a somewhat-practicing general heathen. Christ, that doesn't say anything, does it?
I believe that there are cosmic influences in our lives to varying degrees, and I choose to acknowledge them as the Lady and Lord. However, the two abstractions are really one being, with feminine dominance... I don't follow any specific teachings, and while I feel compelled to go to group meetings in the area, I've heard that most of the people are fairly old women who are stodgy in their beliefs. I'm really more of a, "I'm gonna go meditate over here-- no, no, that's cool, I don't need to wave a knife around to pray" kind of person. Also, I did try to go once and they fucking hide where their meetings are and never found them -_-+
Um... pretty much am broke, working temp jobs, slowing losing the ability to communicate with others because I've been working a factory job too long and have literally been going STUPID. Still living at home, despairing of never being self-sufficient enough to leave.
I'm going back to school this fall to pursue a biology bachelor's, in the vain hope it might get me a stable job and/or the promise of money some day. I would like to get a concentration in food science, since nutrition research is a small obsession with me, but I would have to go to the capital for that and might not be able to handle all those loans.
I still want to make comics, but I'm too sensible to throw my all into it... I need some steady income, and freelance ain't it. I'm also not good enough to make a living off of it. Maybe in time I would be, but growing older has made me unable not to be practical.
I've been with my boyfriend for two and a half years now, and he's been an amazing influence on my confidence and my insanity. He's healed a lot of old wounds from childhood, and pretty much just from being a goof-ball and a great person. In a lot of ways, we're more of best friends than lovers, and while I would never cheat on him I do feel myself more and more drawn into the desire to find myself a sexy lady, and at the very least flirt shamelessly. Perhaps its just boredom with my life in general.
I don't like labels, but they can be helpful, and I am most comfortable with the term 'queer' (a la DAR!) as my subconscious leaning is towards women but in the end it's the person I want and the body doesn't matter.
I am bored nearly all the time, thus, I am boring, and it hurts. I have given up sugar (and thus, booze --most of the time) and in the job search stopped smoking delicious things. It's been about 9 months now, that I am almost always sober (UGH). I am sorely tempted to break that fast tonight, as I'm going back to school soon and fuck if they care what I do.
Let's see... I think that's about all I can think of right now. Oh, one last thing. I am seriously considering looking around my area for sub/Dom peoples. For a while there, I didn't feel the pull towards it, and assumed maybe I was growing out of it. Turns out, no, I'm just cyclical, and I think about it nearly all the time. Dave says I'm a Switch, and that sounds right to me, but at this point I want so badly to sink my teeth into someone and shape their world... I'm discussing the possibility of my 'going out to play with others' with the bf, as he's about as vanilla as I think you can get so I'll not ask anything of him, but I have no idea how it will all play out...