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femmealunettes) wrote2006-12-15 12:41 am
femmealunettes) wrote2006-12-15 12:41 am
I got a headstart on my halo
I think I'm sick of this new LJ update interface now. Pretty much thoroughly.
I'm just sick of a lot of things tonight. Sick of people, sick of being a liar and a loser and a suckup. Sick of second-guessing everyone's intentions and not knowing what's going on half the time.
Julia made us watch Requiem for a Dream today with her, since I got her it for Christmas (I really, really suck at keeping shit secret), and I'm just never watching that movie again. Once was enough for my lifetime. And I didn't even hear/see about a third of it.
Everyone's been asking me what's wrong today. I'm oversensitive and annoyed, that's what's wrong. I'm what's wrong.
I really don't think doing anything out of the ordinary would be a good idea tomorrow, and I know that I'm just going to be disappointing people but I'd rather let them down than have a hellish trip. I need to quit. I need a break to take care of myself. Although it never works when I say I'm going to do that.
I need to stop lying and figure out when and how and if I'm going back. I'm not going to graduate until I'm fucking thirty. I might as well swallow a bullet and take a job greeting at Wal-mart.
I'm just sick of a lot of things tonight. Sick of people, sick of being a liar and a loser and a suckup. Sick of second-guessing everyone's intentions and not knowing what's going on half the time.
Julia made us watch Requiem for a Dream today with her, since I got her it for Christmas (I really, really suck at keeping shit secret), and I'm just never watching that movie again. Once was enough for my lifetime. And I didn't even hear/see about a third of it.
Everyone's been asking me what's wrong today. I'm oversensitive and annoyed, that's what's wrong. I'm what's wrong.
I really don't think doing anything out of the ordinary would be a good idea tomorrow, and I know that I'm just going to be disappointing people but I'd rather let them down than have a hellish trip. I need to quit. I need a break to take care of myself. Although it never works when I say I'm going to do that.
I need to stop lying and figure out when and how and if I'm going back. I'm not going to graduate until I'm fucking thirty. I might as well swallow a bullet and take a job greeting at Wal-mart.