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[femmealunettes]

Okay. So. My therapist gave me the verbal smackdown just now, but it distills into one point: I'm not depressed, I'm full of ennui, and the only way to break that is to get off my ass and do something even if i don't want to.

I honestly have no idea what I want to do with my life. I'm probably going to have to get vocational training if I don't want to work minimum-wage jobs, and while it would be cool to be a carpenter, that's also pretty unrealistic for me.

So. I need to stop telling myself what I can't do, and start focusing on what I can. Instead of checking Fark or Digg or LJ "one more time", I need to get up and do something, even if it's just taking a walk or doing yoga. I need to work on my posture, because she said that my body language basically screams "leave me alone", and my clothes show that I'm depressed(?! I always wear blue and black and grey, because I like those colors...) and I need to take better care of myself.

I need an Action Plan, as terrifying as that is.


On the plus side, I wrote something for bedfellows in about 45 minutes and it just poured out of me so easily. ♥ I love it when that happens, when everything just falls into place. And I like the family I'm playing with for the game, even if I'm not supposed to be directly reusing characters. >>;

Okay. I need to start organizing things. One foot in front of the other...

Comments

[parabolabear.livejournal.com]

totally, absolutely great. baby steps. refer back to this post when youre less motivated to see how pumped you were, initially, for the idea of changing things and then youll get motivated again! KEEP US POSTED.

[lessthangreat.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Take it one step at a time, hun. It's difficult, but it'll be so worth it. ♥