by no means

[femmealunettes]

Having my least healthy, most destructively co-dependent relationship shoved in my face is now making me reassess all of my relationships in that light.

I am revoltingly attention-needy. I get petulant when I think I'm being shunned or left out or insulted. I try too hard to insert myself into groups of friends so I can feel that connection too.

And I'm too scared to do it offline, so my entire emotional life is being played out online.


This sounds stupid, but I get how Gabriel Gray felt. Unimportant. A gear in a watch. Like I could be more... but not that I'm meant to be more.


Ah, cry moar, I know. I'm gonna suit up and go face an hour-long crying session like a person with a spine.

...and then I'm going to wish like hell that I could buy a pack of cigarettes because FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I want them so bad shouldn't a month be enough to stop craving them? please? when do I get to stop wanting them?

Comments

[moorishflower.livejournal.com]

*hug* I know how you feel; I'm pretty needy myself, but I'm terrified of being rejected by someone I actually approach. It's why I always wait for someone to friend me first, talk to me first, all that.

Here, before you go, I need you. I'd be sad if you ever left. <3

[speccygeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

*clings to* I need you too. You are too good to not know and I am lucky we found each other. <333