femmealunettes: (careful what I say here : Horrible)
femmealunettes ([personal profile] femmealunettes) wrote2009-02-02 02:10 pm
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by no means

Having my least healthy, most destructively co-dependent relationship shoved in my face is now making me reassess all of my relationships in that light.

I am revoltingly attention-needy. I get petulant when I think I'm being shunned or left out or insulted. I try too hard to insert myself into groups of friends so I can feel that connection too.

And I'm too scared to do it offline, so my entire emotional life is being played out online.


This sounds stupid, but I get how Gabriel Gray felt. Unimportant. A gear in a watch. Like I could be more... but not that I'm meant to be more.


Ah, cry moar, I know. I'm gonna suit up and go face an hour-long crying session like a person with a spine.

...and then I'm going to wish like hell that I could buy a pack of cigarettes because FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I want them so bad shouldn't a month be enough to stop craving them? please? when do I get to stop wanting them?

[identity profile] captainemo411.livejournal.com 2009-02-03 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
OMG I feel that way all the time. However, you're epically adorable and awesome. Ppl def. want to be around you. You're funtimez lady! <3

Skip the cigarettes and smoke some weeeeeeed with me?! *g*

[identity profile] speccygeekgrrl.livejournal.com 2009-02-03 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
<3333 *hugs!*

God, I wish. I would roll such an epic blunt to smoke with you and Kimmy. EPIC.

[identity profile] captainemo411.livejournal.com 2009-02-03 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Sweet Jesus, that'd be great! Like, one the size of a small hay bale should do it. haha

Oh, I meant to ask you if you like random texting... *hopes so!*

[identity profile] speccygeekgrrl.livejournal.com 2009-02-03 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't mind random texting, but I don't have a phone number right now... :/