Okay guys, I'm sorry for breaking the fandom, I promise not to do it again. (this is not feeling guilty for something that isn't my fault. If I had left the damn thing where it was, none of this would have happened. That said, I have come to terms with it, so don't try and tell me I didn't do anything, okay? I'm only taking responsibility for the reposting, you guys did all the wank on your own. [please note: this is affectionate and joking.]) I was going to go back and comment to all your opinions and stuff, but honestly? I don't think that would be healthy for my emotional state right now. So: thank you all for pitching in your opinions, and I am sincerely sorry (but not taking the blame) for any and all conflicts created as a result.

I was supposed to come up with a rough draft of an essay for Rachael tonight. It's only 1 am and I'm so fucking wiped. EMOTIONAL DRAIN: 95% COMPLETE. She'll be mad at me but I really can't bring myself to care.

I'm so tired I have been staring at a fic I was pouring out like water before class, now, nothing at all. I hate that. I don't know if I'm too warm or too cold right now, either.

Tomorrow I have to call the YMCA, get there to finalize everything, and hopefully I can hit the pool a.s.a.p. Swimming until I can't swim any more sounds appealing to me.


I wish I could write. I'll just take Ambien and stare at a candle until I fall asleep, and try to remember how to breathe in a calming way. I know there was something about switching off nostrils to balance out.


Oh look, it's an RP meme. I don't exactly have a lot of RP characters, but this could be fun anyway, so:

Give me a current character of mine and I will list for you their:

01.) Full name?
02.) Best friend?
03.) Sexuality?
04.) Favorite color?
05.) Relationship status?
06.) Ideal mate?
07.) Turn-ons?
08.) Last sexual experience?
09.) Favorite food?
10.) Crushes?
11.) Favorite music?
12.) Biggest fear?
13.) Biggest fantasy?
14.) Quirks in bed?
15.) Bad habits?
16.) Biggest regret?
17.) Best kept secrets?
18.) Last thought?
19.) Worst sexual/romantic experience?
20.) Biggest insecurity?


I want a fucking cigarette.