femmealunettes: (:))
I am writing something creative for the first time in months. Since... mid-June? Ugh.

I am developing an RP character for the first time in, oh, 20 months? Possibly slightly more than that. And it's a blond. I don't think I've played a blond since Tobias Tambor and I came up with him in 200...6, I think. Anyways I'm dead certain nobody will be surprised in the least by who I'm using for a PB:

♥ I like using people that make me happy to look at them. And Martin does that.

Anyways his name is Juniper and I am having a lot of fun writing something to get the hang of him, something that will lead pretty neatly into the playing, I think. It's really been so long since I've RPed that I'm slightly terrified I'll be Doing It Wrong, or take too long, or run out of words or something stupid like that. Seriously, the last character I played was Gabrielle Gray and anyone who remembers that time period knows how weird my head got with her in it. Juniper is sane, at least, and not a serial killer, he's actually very normal. He's stable and trustworthy and honorable and things have the potential to go spectacularly, marvelously wrong for him, which is a little bit thrilling actually.

Hopefully [livejournal.com profile] atomicfiction and I can start playing tonight. I have to watch The Matrix and finish doing my reading for FMS, I can get away with not doing any reading for Mass Media because we're going to be working on Part 1 for the first month, and then tomorrow I have class until 5pm and then I should do my French homework, so yes, tonight is when I want to start, so I have something to look forward to while I'm in class, lol.

everyone today is turning on

  • Apr. 27th, 2009 at 2:17 PM
femmealunettes: (#vortex# fallen angel : Gabrielle Gray)
I am plugging myself back into the life-giving electric main that is Vortex. Taking a break honestly didn't do anything for my productivity or how I feel, it just let time pass that whenever I said "that sounds fun!" the reply was "aren't you on hiatus?"

After tonight, I think the personal stress level will drop. God knows what's going to happen fandom-wide, but it's going to be a relief not to have "omg who gonna die?" looming over things.

Plus, all summer to fix it with fanon, haha.

So yeah. I'm back. And what I said about not bringing in Audrey until June? Yeah, no, she's too much fun to let languish. So whenever there's a reasonable way to bring her in, that'll be cool. This is the first time in almost EVER that I'm actively playing two female characters at once, and I like them more than the guys I'm playing... :x It's cause they're badasses and the guys aren't so much.

Ooh, a breeze. It's 89 degrees out. D: Breeze was nice...

Okay, gotta go, back around 4.

icon meme!

  • Apr. 7th, 2009 at 9:37 PM
femmealunettes: (bitch you for real? : Micah)
I got my list from [livejournal.com profile] wickedpurrz: If you comment to this post, I'll pick six of your icons. Then you post at your own journal and talk about those icons, and continue the icon love!

AHAHAHA. This is Zachary Quinto in an episode of a show called "Off-Centre," in which he plays a very... outspoken, shall we say, bisexual, who totes around a guinea pig. He's fucking hilarious. :D I don't use this icon nearly enough.

This is Amanda Palmer, of the Dresden Dolls. She has a hot librarian look going AND she's holding a riding crop. I would let her smack me around all day long. "I'm sorry mistress, I didn't mean to bring it back a month overdue.. what, one strike for every day? OKAY I mean, uh, have mercy!"

This is the sole Dresden Files icon I have left... it was an awesome show that was canceled way too soon. I use this icon in uncomfortable, "okay, I'm getting the fuck out of this conversation" situations, and also when I'm trying a diversionary tactic. xD

This is Sid from Skins. I love that kid. I never made it through S2, but he got fucked around with so much, poor thing. His best friend's a bastard, he's in love with his best friend's girl, and the girl who's in love with him is the local anorexic and pilled-up space cadet. I use this icon in "this is a baaaad idea" situations.

Zachary Quinto again, playing coy in an interview. I just love his expression when he says "I don't know." xD

Luke Campbell from Heroes! Kid made some of the best expressions. xD I use this icon either in "you're so full of shit" situations or when I'm in need of a solo Luke icon.

Things are going down in Vortex that just make me shake my head and go "seriously? SERIOUSLY? okay..." But I am sitting here with a bag of potato chips (I eat chips so rarely!) and a big glass of water and I'm ready for RPing until my hamds go numb!
femmealunettes: (#vortex# sweetheart : Gabrielle Gray)
Okay. Okay. So I had a dream that [livejournal.com profile] piping_hot, [livejournal.com profile] tiptoe39, [livejournal.com profile] doctor_caduceus, [livejournal.com profile] moorishflower and I were like... walking around some town together, except we were all our Vortex characters, and we saw something shady going on? Oh, it was a kidnapping! So we went to go investigate except when we got there and Piping!Sylar TKed open the door and we went in, we all turned back into ourselves... the house was all "ooh mystic" with lots of round tables with candles and gauzy table cloths and there were decks of tarot cards on all of the tables.

We all sat down at one of the tables where there were laptops and we started RPing out the rest of the kidnapping scene... then some lady came in and started playing the part of the kidnapper, except she kept reading things and we had to stop and listen to her, and it was like she couldn't read. It took her forever and her posts were typo-ridden and awful.

And then we were all outside a Stewarts (gas station/convenience store with AMAZING ice cream), still with the laptops, still RPing, except I had my brother's two pitbulls to watch. I got tired of waiting for the kidnapper lady to be done, so I left the table and Tippy came with me and we played with the dogs until Moorish and Doc and Piping also abandoned the interloper.

....and that was my dream. Feel free to WTF with me.

take the chapstick, put it on your lips

  • Jan. 13th, 2009 at 1:24 PM
femmealunettes: (bookworm at home : Gabriel)
I just finished filling out the application for Cayuga Community College. I sent in a transcript request to SUNY Plattsburgh. I have three classes I could sign up for, but each one is $400 and I don't know how much my dad wants to shell out.

I could take a cake course and do Intro to Sociology, which I have taken already but didn't get credit for.

I could take Abnormal Psych, in which I could learn about myself and my family. xD

Or I could take World Religion, and become even more confused and argumentative with my parents when they talk God at me.

...I'm really leaning toward Abnormal Psych; the only downside is that the class goes from 9:30 to ll am. @.@ I can't think that early in the day...

But it's a two-day-a-week class, as opposed to World Religion, so I would be getting slightly more human interaction. And it wouldn't be a bad thing for me to actually stay up when the help from the pills wears off at 6:30-7 every morning.

Good news: I don't crave a cigarette as badly as I did yesterday. Bad news: I really want to robotrip, though. Like, really really.

I am going to revise my wordcount for the month tonight or tomorrow, because I have SO MUCH I want to write about Gabrielle Gray. ohmygod AUs are so much fun and I have all of these points that I need to touch on: daddy issues, the reason for her insecurity and need to be recognized as special, the differences that ensue as the series begins in the normal universe opposed to her own.

I haven't been this excited about a new character since Dewey. :3 And while he was awesome, this game is probably going to be awesomer, even if it doesn't start for two weeks. Gives me time to carve out space in my head where I can keep her.

Oh man. I'm going to be a student again, even if it's only for one or two classes. It's taken me long enough... and I am damn well going to stick to it this time. No more mid-semester panicky withdrawals, no more lame justifications. I can, and I will do this.


Oh. OH. I would like to add this:


  • Jan. 12th, 2009 at 9:14 PM
femmealunettes: (briefly kickass : Team Noah/Gabriel)
Is anything more fun than character-building for a new RP? The glee of making a journal, finding the right PB and icons, figuring out how to think and write and be sneaky and how FUN you know it's all going to be?

\o/ ohman, so excited.

Is it sad or funny or pathetic or just mercurial of me to go from a crying wreck to a bouncy excited fangirl in four hours or less? I DON'T CARE I'm just glad to be back on the up side of the world.

Also, fun prediction from tvsquad.com: Zachary Quinto maaaaay get his own show on NBC, possibly a Heroes spinoff. ...all Sylar, all the time? SIGN ME UP.
femmealunettes: (got my attention. : Regina)
My head is in an excellent place to understand Gideon right now. I love this rush of getting into a new game, I forgot how obsessed I can become in a short time. xD I can see why people get addicted to roleplaying. There should be a support group... Roleplayers Anonymous. I think a lot of people would get hung up on number eight, though.

Regina Spektor is A+ music for zoning out to, just listening to her voice lilting.

I think I might have to send in a rescue team for the bowls at the bottom of the sink. The first thing to do is sort things out on the side... After dinner, though. Piiiiizzaaaaa.

...crap, Kelly's sister is coming. I forgot that I told her she could use my computer to put things on her iPod. D: D: D:

[Poll #1042485]

Aug. 18th, 2007

  • 9:54 PM
femmealunettes: (*holds back lulz*)
Kristin is running a new roleplaying game, so anyone who likes that sort of thing should check it out.

....I'm using David Hewlett as a PB. D:

Jul. 12th, 2006

  • 12:11 PM
femmealunettes: (Seth/Ryan : to sleep... : The O.C.)
All morning (after I did the stats, which took less than ten minutes), I've been working on copying old threads into plain old html to put up on the Log Cabin. I did Nika and Kellan last night, so today I decided to work on Sean and Mickey...

I forgot how completely heartbreaking they got. ;_; It's been like ten months since they started, and for a lot of that all I could do was write AU things for them because their canon hurt way too much to work with. But now it's getting better, and that's awesome. But still, looking over what happened kind of just twists a knife in my chest a little.

Pookies, all. Heartbreaking pookies.

I have to wait until I get home to upload them, of course, and I think I'm missing some logs, but once I finish doing the absolute lowest point monologues, I'm going to take a break and probably read/fix something happier, like Etienne and Lucien or Nick and Oliver.

Good thing that I've only had to answer the phone twice today, I'm all choked up. xD;

Jul. 11th, 2006

  • 7:46 PM
femmealunettes: ([tdf] OTP: Sean + Mickey)

Kristin and I are TOTALLY going to make a scrapbook for all our characters.


it never calls me when I'm down

  • Jun. 8th, 2006 at 1:38 PM
femmealunettes: (driving me nuts : Robot Chicken)
:D The hot mailman came in and talked to me. Oh, hot mailman, you make working here amongst the crazies so worth it.

Today has been uneventful. A little writing, a little bit of trying to figure out how to ration out my RP energy/time. The problem isn't so much that I have too many characters as it is that I don't want to give any of them up. (no, okay, the problem is entirely that I have too many characters, and the ones I thought I would be done with after the game ended I mostly didn't. I think I've stopped playing three or four our of... thirty-four? And three of them I've never even played with.)

I need a gigantic whiteboard so I can make a chart. Like the chart on the L Word. Except with characters. Because it's like playing Six Degrees of Kevin Bacon, I can relate any of my characters to any other one in five steps or less. xD

Anyhow. Barring divine intervention (or a phone call from anyone I'd like to spend time with) the rest of my day will be spent writing, I think. I have three stories going for the WTF table and I have an idea for two more. I need to finish one before I start another one, though. ADD =/= getting things done. (...I may put Psycho on for background noise. Cause I just watched it, but Vince Vaughn = excellent eye candy. andIkindofmaybewanttoseeTheBreakup. I mean what? NO.)

And also I may or may not finish working on the Andrew/Trent soundtrack Kristin and I have been putting together, and by finish I mean trying desperately to put some kind of chronolaogical order to the songs and finishing the back cover art. It's turning out very well though. I'm happy with it. (and it only makes me tear up a little. xD)

hm hm hm. Sometimes I feel like I'm far too much of an open book. Is that a bad thing? I'd rather be a little too open than a lot too closed, which is why I hardly ever make friendslocked posts and I'd never go friends-only even if my parents did find my journal now. I've tried it a couple of times in the past and it just isn't any good for me. I think too much about things like this, but LJ has become such a huge part of my life. I've had mine for almost five years now. I have a permanent account because I can't imagine not having LiveJournal around. Five years is longer than anything lasts in Dani-time. It's almost a full quarter of my life.

I don't know. Ranty McRantpants. I'm going HOME now.

first things first

  • Apr. 7th, 2006 at 1:11 PM
femmealunettes: (me and my shadow. : Lou Taylor Pucci)
[livejournal.com profile] railway, I got the necklaces today-- okay, they arrived a while ago but I only just got them from home today. They're gorgeous. I'm wearing Rock Floss right now. :D

I'm apparently getting a year's worth of Lamictal free from GlaxoSmithKline, since I'm low-income. Dr. Clark-Rubin was all, "You know I have to charge you for the appointment you missed, that's an hour of my time and an hour of your time" and I kind of laughed and said "No, that's a lot more than an hour of my time, the way I get paid." A lot more like ten hours for the cost of the missed, twenty for the one I actually got. Almost my whole goddamn paycheck. I think it would be cheaper to just call a phone sex line and make the lady on the other end "mmhm" sympathetically for an hour.

I'm going to finish the song titles drabbles later, and go sit down and read for a little while now, I think. My wrists ache, and I know exactly why: I'm being run absolutely ragged between Linus and Kellan and Alexei (and, to a lesser extent, Maeve). Just, nonstop. I had a dream for Alexei last night; that hasn't happened in a long time, dreaming for my characters. So I'm going to step away from the keyboard a little, get through a little more of Blue Blood, maybe watch a movie with Kristin, and then come back and indulge them a little more. xD

Apr. 1st, 2006

  • 4:10 AM
femmealunettes: (*goldfish*)
How many is too many?

Because now there's one more.

(and I'm a filthy PB-stealer. forgive me, Kierstin.)

take my advice, cause we are bad news

  • Mar. 27th, 2006 at 6:28 PM
femmealunettes: ([tdf] OTP: Sean + Mickey)
Pretty much all I've written in the past month, besides LJ entries, has been straight-up pornfic. All to do with my (and Kristin's) original characters, all of it to be found on GreatestJournal if anyone cares to see (drabbles at _i_hear_voices and longer works, for the kinkwriting table, at the sister journal to this one), and in total, since March 1, not counting the backdated drabbles, 16,692 words. Sixteen thousand six hundred and ninety-two words. Of porn. xD I am a deviant and a pervert and clearly I need something else to do, but I'm kind of proud that I somehow managed twenty-seven single spaced pages of pr0n in a month.

And I still have a few days, too. I'm going to push that over 20,000 words and then I'm going to collapse, because a) I still have like ten characters to drabble about, and 19 days worth of drabbles to catch up on, and b) oh man, I'm totally going to get carpal tunnel. My wrists already hate me.

I can't do NaNo, but I wasn't even *trying* to get a certain number of words in this month. WTG, me.


  • Mar. 4th, 2006 at 1:50 AM
femmealunettes: (talk nerdy to me. : Numb3rs)
updated list of future PBs: (DIBS OMG DIBS SO MUCH)

*Lou Pucci
Matthew Lillard
Gillian Anderson
Chris Botti
Tracie Thoms
Alan Tudyk
Rob Morrow
John Leguizamo
Luke Wilson

I don't have ideas for all of them yet, but man, I can come up with them if you give me the time. xD

Also, OH MY GOD SETH GREEN IN WITHOUT A PADDLE IS SO ADORABLE. I mean, he's ALWAYS adorable, but standing next to six feet three inches of Matthew Lillard, he looks so tiny and AWWWWW.

gone sour

  • Mar. 1st, 2006 at 1:17 AM
femmealunettes: (*pout*)
Tonight, I had... three? Four. Four crying fits. o_o; One on the phone with my mom, one immediately after getting off the phone, and two between calls. Not because of her, but because I feel so bad for fucking up my family by letting my dad stay mad at me. If I just apologize, everything can go back to normal, but I don't think I should have to apologize...


Smoked more tonight than at all in recent memory. Thrice in one night. Talked to my mom, went and got my work schedule, did Wal-mart.

What else today. Got Sean through the first worst day; there will be worse ones soon, but this one was hard enough on me, I'm an emotional train wreck. All self-loathing. In the morning, in the evening, now... Tried to finish up something with another character, but that's probably not going to happen now. Tonight at least.

I can't make any decisions. I can't decide a single freaking thing without someone getting upset, without something going wrong, without letting someone down. I give the hell up. Everyone else make decisions, I'm not even trying to run a three-person drama anymore, I'm not fit to be a co-mod, I suck at all forms of life including online ones. I'm just going to play by everyone else's goddamn rules from now on.

I need a freaking advil or something. :/

sad meme in snow

  • Feb. 21st, 2006 at 2:06 PM
femmealunettes: (I ate him and I'll eat you too : Skifree)
I have lived through 107/159 things )

...yeah, memes =/= actual thought. Last night I got baked and did a *lot* of RP planning, mostly about Sean and Mickey. And I thought a lot. Kristin was like, "You're weirding me out, and I know you do the same thing when you're sober, but stop thinking so much." I couldn't help it.

I also came up with the RP Rule of Longevity: "Being happy isn't interesting." Which explains not only why some things die early, but life in general. Which is scary. I freaked out pretty good after that came to mind.

And now... um. I think Amber's bringing my computer down to ResNet to get fixed, which is awesome because he started fucking up hardcore when I moved him to the dorm, and Kristin and I are getting tattizzled, and it's snowing. I think that's all.

fake lives never looked so good

  • Feb. 10th, 2006 at 5:09 AM
femmealunettes: (sexuality isn't really a vegetable)
What I did spend the week doing was writing about my characters. Short little drabbles to mark the beginning of an unhealthy habit. xD And once I finished those, just random whatevers. Poor Doug, he's like "nooooo I'm straight don't make me gay in your stupid AUs" and I'm just, *maniacal laughter*.

God, I could spend so long doing nothing but getting caught up on my boys' lives.

Today Trent and Andrew are getting hitched in Boston; Dan and Garrett and Skip and Chad are all there too. (and, holy crap, I've been playing Trent for a full year now. *party streamers, noisemakers, silly hats*)

On the 14th, Bastien and Noah are going out for dinner to celebrate Bastien's birthday, and Fox is going to see Sasha singing "My Funny Valentine" whether Sasha knows he's there or not. (He should have called Sasha January 31, but that didn't get done out. :/)

Pax is pitching a new kind of fit, the 'how come everyone else gets to make these decisions and I don't' fit. Some people, never happy... I don't know what kind of decision he even wants to make. He's half-spiteful and half-possessive, and that's not a good combination.

And, as little as I want it to, something's got to happen with Mickey and Sean. Poor Sean's going to lose it, he had so much hope for getting him well again.

Gaaaah. So many plans, so little time.
femmealunettes: (heat of the moment : Closer)
See, what I said about every part of my life falling apart and how I didn't want that to happen? I should have knocked on wood.

Whatever. I'm set for some pruning. Too much in my head, I'm handing out eviction notices. The unloved, the ignored, the wordless, time for them to go. Broken promises, open-ended plots with no resolution ever in sight, reminders of when things meant something once.

What does RP mean to me, I was asked in a meme today. I'm not redoing the meme, I've had it up to here with that one, but I'll answer anyhow.

It's an escape. It's a way to be everything I can't be really: confident, smooth, funny, capable, not just an object of affection but an object worthy of adoration. I don't trust anyone who tells me I mean everything, as much as I'd like to believe them; it's only acceptable when it's a character, a reason to mean anything, even a staged and unreal reason.

It's a tool, yeah. It helps me hone my writing skills, it helps me get out my frustation, it helps me relax. Until it doesn't. Until I can't write longer than a post on my own anymore. Until it just pisses me off and makes me tense and frustrated and unhappy. And when it does that, I don't have anything to do to work it off, so I just stay pissed.

What does RP mean to me? Everything. Nothing. It's most of my waking hours and it's choking out the rest of my brain, like kudzu or purple loosestrife. It's a weed, it's a drug, it's a substitution for my own disappointing life. It is my life.

Oh look. It's snowing.
femmealunettes: ([tdf] Trent)
In other news that only one person will care about, I'm now playing three sets of related characters.

Jay and Ann Hammon, brother and sister. Julian Mandrake and Josh Tree, cousins. And Trent Anderson and Dan Anderson, nephew and uncle.

I swear, I should have track marks or something. It's an addiction, I should show it.

Anyhow, I'm amused at that, which isn't nearly enough to offset the angry/annoyed/disappointed but it's trying. And now I go shower, because showers make everything better, except not at all.


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