I definitely should have been asleep two hours ago at least, seeing as I have to be at the doctor's in six hours and I still haven't caught up on my flist, but hey, I've been in internet withdrawal.

I can't even sleep after the appointment because I have to see Lisa at 3. :( I don't really want to talk to her. "Hi, I've been avoiding you for two months so I can wallow in feeling worse. Uh, sorry? By the way, I just realized one of my pills is giving me all of my negative side effects but when I stop taking it I'm a psycho, thoughts on that?"

Ugh.

Anyone know a good sunburn remedy?


And as if I don't have enough to write, I'm stealing a meme from perdiccas! Not that I expect it to be very popular.

Inspired by Doctor Who's "Turn Left:" Pick one of my stories and tell me a point in the tale that you'd change. Something tiny (what if Jim used feather-bouncy-string toys instead of jingly toys in Cheat Sheet?) or big (what if Mohinder had refused to see Gabriel in Erased?) and I'll tell you how that one difference would have altered the course of the entire story.

Sadly, my masterlist is a couple months out of date, but everything is tagged by fandom so you can at least get to the more recent stuff if you want.


ohgodneedtosleep

- apparently, I am scared of my father (?)
- and of confrontation (duh)
- and of just about everything
- I do not think I deserve to feel negative emotions
-- because I focus too much on making other people happy (?)
- fear apparently does NOT lead to the dark side, it leads to catharsis
- my train of thought is incomprehensible to anyone including myself
- prescription drugs are not an approved way to keep from feeling bad-->feeling guilty-->feeling worse-->etc

- I'm going to be so fucked when I run out of my scrips because I can't get in to see Dr. Mehrhof before 8/11

- Captain Morgan better be as effective as I remember it being last summer
- or perhaps more so would be nice

- being nice to the Dunkin' Donuts lady = twice the munchkins I paid for. Sweet.

- I really hate my youngest sister
-- no, really
--- as in, I almost reached back and clawed her across the face while we were in the car
---- I don't think I would have gotten yelled at for it, my mother agrees she's a nasty little bitch

- I don't care if it's juvenile, I'm considering cutting her hair while she's asleep
-- and blaming it on Mikey for bonus points

- today really wasn't worth waking up for
-- actually, apply that to the past 14 months of my life.

Fuck this, I'm going to sleep.

[Poll #1426095]


Hey, does anyone know where I can find good Star Trek TOS wallpapers? I've seen a bunch of XI ones, but not so much luck with original-flavor. Thank you in advance ♥

So Rachael just came in and apologized for what she said to me earlier...

I don't know if I should accept it if she's giggly and tripping-over drunk when she made it, though.

Ah, whatever, holding a grudge is stupid.


Man, I didn't even get drunk until I was 18 and change, she's only just turned 16 and this isn't her first time. First time I've seen her this bad though.



God, I feel old. Even if she apologized, she's still right, in the worst way possible. But there's no use rehashing the same old reasons-I-suck that I go through every few weeks.


I feel so overdramatic every time I make a post like this. Is this what Lisa means about my guilt about feeling negatively?




dramatic post is dramatic.