Sometimes I love my father, but sometimes he infuriates me beyond all reason. Sometimes he does both in the same day! And usually it happens on Facebook because god knows when he says things that piss me off to my face, nothing good ever comes of it and usually I end up running away to cry in peace.

...you know, he honestly thinks I'm afraid of him, and I can kind of see why. I'm not afraid of him, I'm just exasperated to the point of tears at how someone I know can be so loving and smart in some ways can be such a bigoted moron in other ways. I know I'm not going to change his political opinion with anything short of massive brain trauma, but he could just once let something pass by without spouting off his conservative party line at me.

The fact that we can occasionally watch the Daily Show together speaks worlds to the power of silence, really.

I would really like to be asleep, but every time I think "well, time to close the laptop" I get a flash of my nightmare with the airplane going down and that wakes me back up for twenty minutes or so, lather rinse repeat.

Plane crashes are what started my slow descent into insanity back when I was doing college for the first time. If there's one thing from that time of my life I don't need to revisit, it's this bullshit.

At least tonight I had some excuse for reading fanfic all night long (sampling a wide variety of fandoms, thanks Delicious/Network), but it still couldn't clear out the mental images. Fuck me sideways, I wish I had some brain bleach.

I made the spur of the moment decision to dye my hair while I was in Walmart an hour ago... so pretty soon there will be pictures of me as a grey-eyed redhead on the internets. How's that for a change?

Day 09 - The best soundtrack/score to a film

I'm going to cheat and say it's collectively all the soundtracks to all Wes Anderson films. I think I like The Life Aquatic the best, followed by The Royal Tenenbaums, then Fantastic Mr. Fox, then The Darjeeling Limited, then Rushmore. But they're all really close, and sometimes they switch position in the list. I went through a phase where all I listened to was The Royal Tenenbaums soundtrack for like a month.

It's so easy to tell you're watching one of his films for a lot of reasons, but the adorable and quirky soundtracks are a dead giveaway.



My skin is kind of pink around the edges of my hairline, but I think I like how the color turned out. Tomorrow I'll take pictures.

I am very moody right now. I don't know if this is because I've been sleeping badly or because of hormones or what, but I am becoming very annoyed very easily, which isn't typical. Usually I can put up with people being stupid or rude or annoying. Not so much right now.