First, and most importantly: Happy birthday, moorishflower! I love you, darling. Have a wonderful day.

Secondly, I don't know why I'm at all surprised that I woke up at 4:30 and couldn't get back to sleep. I guess I shouldn't complain, since I did get about five hours of sleep, but... I have so much to do today and I could have used a little bit more rest.

Emi stays up until 1am. I got to sleep around 11:30 after she stopped using Skype for the night. I don't feel too bad about using my computer while she's asleep and the room is dark because I didn't have trouble sleeping when that's what she was doing.

The dining hall opens at 6:45. I told the boys I'd meet them for breakfast at 8. I'm thinking about going to grab a cup of coffee and then seeing if I can sign up for my swim test in the hour between... not to take it, just to sign up for it. Taking it would be later in the morning, in between meetings.

At least waking up this early gives me time to catch up on all the fanfiction I didn't read last night. Priorities, still right in order. xD

I aced my swimming test. Go me, I won't drown.

I have a new rule: I am only allowed one cup of coffee in the mornings. I had two today and I feel decidedly sick. This may have something to do with exertion, lack of sleep, and humidity, but I'm making an executive decision about caffeine intake right the hell now. One cup of coffee in the morning, and soda with lunch if I'm being good. Water or juice with dinner. That is, if I eat lunch and dinner. If I only have one meal, no soda. If I skip breakfast, no coffee.

I forgot what it was like, cafeteria dining. And I blocked out the experience of shared bathrooms after leaving Macomb Hall. At least the bathrooms in Weld are very clean.

Now, I have half an hour until I need to be at the Honor Code meeting across campus. I'm going to lie down for 15 minutes and hope I feel less like throwing up when I stand up again.

I miss being home very, very much, but I need to grow the fuck up, basically.

Today I did ALL THE THINGS.

no for fucking serious I'm so tired.

Like I posted earlier, I woke up at 4:30, went to breakfast, the transfer student meeting, then took my swim test. I came back to the room, took a shower, and rested for like five minutes before I was off again. I've been to... three more meetings since then? I also found out that I do NOT have a work-study in the library, I don't have a work-study at all, which is kind of a bummer. But I'm totally going to stop in and talk to Elsie all the time because she's awesome. I found out that I have to do three journals for Wells 111, but I can do them as video journals, so basically I get to vlog for credit. :D

There was a lunch for transfer students, and I got to see Connie from CCC again, I didn't realize she was coming here. I got sat next to the psychology chairwoman, who sort of recruited me into Psych as a major... so I had to go talk to Dr. Speaker to get that taken care of. I also had to try to hunt down a French teacher to get put in 123 instead of 101. And I signed the honor code. And I brought all my forms to the places they needed to be. And I got my mailbox number and learned the "congratulations" song and about all the Wells traditions.

EVERYBODY on staff remembers my name. It's kind of incredible that people recognize me so quickly, and everybody is so nice.

Oh, and I went to talk to Chris Richardson, and made a standing appointment to see him every week to keep him appraised of my mental health status so if I start going downhill I can get the assistance I need. He's also super nice, and basically now I have another person to do talk therapy with, and...

I think I'm happy. I realized when I was talking to him that I'm not scared any more, I'm excited, and I'm ready to start classes tomorrow, and to meet new people, and to start joining clubs, and I'm genuinely actually excited and not just manic, and even though I am tired beyond the telling of it I'm happy.

And it feels really, really fucking good.

Dinner starts soon. I think I'm going to skip it because as much as I feel good I also still feel a little bit sick.

I have two more things to talk about but they're both going under friends lock. Not filtered, just locked, because I want to give you guys my address without having creepers send me stalking letters (lol) and there's one other important thing.

day 11| a non-academic book you plan to read in the next month

I don't know if I'm actually going to have any time for pleasure reading in the next month-- I suspect not-- but once I finish Bending the Willow I'm going to start Sherlock Holmes and the Ice Palace Murders.


12| favorite article of clothing

My blue bra-top dress, because it's comfortable and I look sexy as hell in it and it's Even Line colors which means I can wear it all the time at Wells.

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