So I finished my thesis, and brought it to tea time, and had three history majors read it.

...so my grammar will be fantastic, but no one could really check the science. Which is okay, because I had someone else check the science, and I'm going to have a couple of professors check it again before it's due next week, and as long as the grammar is fine then I will be able to edit the content as I get constructive feedback on it.

Mary and Shane both used black pens, but Phillip actually used a red pen to mark it. He's going to make a really good teacher, he just LOOKS teacherly sitting there grading papers.

Spirit went well tonight. I met the Pope... and I stole the ring right off his hand. And with all the modifiers I loaded onto that roll, I got a +9 to the action... which is BETTER THAN LEGENDARY. So not only did I get the ring, but nobody noticed I had it, and I strolled casually out of Vatican City with it. Now I'm going to send a note to the Modernists (which is Hemingway, Joyce, and two other authors we haven't encountered yet, and they steal things) and use the ring as a signet to seal it and say "GUESS WHAT I STOLE, SUCKERS!" :D If they won't let me in their stupid club because I don't write fiction, I will take my scientific academic papers and my awesome thief skills and just be amazing by myself.

Now I am going to bed, so I can wake up early in the morning and register for classes.

Achievement unlocked: crying in therapy and coming home with a bottle of wine!

So anyway I broke down crying saying I didn't want to go crazy again because I think I'm going to lose my mind when I don't have my friends around to support me any more. And Lisa told me that I'm very strong and that I've been through a lot of bad stuff since I've gotten better and I'm still okay, because I know how to deal with things, and I will be fine as long as I make an effort to foster a healthy living environment for myself.

And also she said I'm really good at rationalizing my feelings. Most of the time when people say you're rationalizing it's a negative thing, but it's okay in psychotherapy.

But she also says that she thinks people should feel the things they feel without repressing them. And god knows I don't repress anything I feel, I talk about every fucking emotion that crosses my heart. Even if I only talk about it under friendslock here on LJ, I do talk about it. And I feel them. I can't STOP feeling them. I kind of wish I could stop feeling them because then I would be a little bit less sad. It would be nice to be less sad.

But honestly, I'm fine. Now that I have my thesis done, everything else will be fine. I can write a paper or two this week so I don't have to do everything over Thanksgiving break. I will get people to start planning next semester's big SAGA event tonight. I will get my homework done. Everything will be fine.