I'm packing. All day today I slept, from right after church until 6, and since then I've been trying to pack for the trip to New York City, which, holy shit, is in three days from now. Thursday. So much to do before then.

I don't even know what I'm going to be doing yet. So many things I want to do, but. Being poor, and also lack of time. Making sure all my medications are packed, just in case. Fixing up packages of love for pocky_slash and vash_donutangel, finishing olukemi and mysticshell's Christmas gifts. Fitting all that stuff, and all my clothes, into one suitcase and one carry-on bag, somehow. Cleaning my room aside from all the packing.



I don't know, I ignored my LJ all weekend. All I want to do is get high with my brother, go to the mall with my friends, RP all the time so I don't have to think about what's coming after all the visiting around is done. I don't even know how the MCR concert is going to work, how we're all going to get up there, where everyone is staying. So much confusion, it's easier for me to not think about it, even though that just leads to things going to hell.

I don't even know.