I forgot what was great about Thursday. I'm sure there was something, but I can't remember it. So I'm just going to say that I love sleep. Sleep is amazing. It's not my favorite thing in the world, but it's pretty close to it. I love having crazy wild dreams, I love sleeping in, I love taking naps, I love waking up early enough in the morning that I can go back to sleep again. I love pillows, I love blankets, I love my stuffed animals.

So yeah. Sleep. It's great. I wish I could do it more.

I know I have already said this in the previous four days of this love-fest, but man, I love having friends. It really wasn't that long ago that the only people I talked to were my mother and my sisters and my father. It wasn't that long ago that I barely left my bedroom, really. It's been just over a year since I came to Wells, but that year has pretty much revolutionized my entire life.

Also, I love some of my classes. One of them I pretty much hate, one of them barely qualifies as a class, but the rest of them are fantastic. I like Biological Bases of Behavior a lot, I love my yoga class, Poetry Writing is probably the best thing I am doing this semester, but today I had Gender Power Literature and Film, and I just really love Professor Lohn. She's fantastic. I used to be terrified of her, but now she's one of my favorite professors. Today she told us that we can write basically whatever we want for our second writing challenge, so I'm going to examine the noir aesthetic in Laura and Double Indemnity and compare the interactions between men and women in the books versus the movies. I really like film noir, and I really liked Double Indemnity a lot-- Laura was okay, not fantastic, but hey, noir is good whenever I can get it. And now I get to write a paper on it!

So aside from being in class I have spent pretty much the entire day bar maybe two hours with people I like. I like my boss, but she wasn't around for about half the time I was at work. Then I spent all of lunch running a voter registration drive with Phillip and Shane. Then I had class. Then I had dinner, and after dinner I went to look at Meg's artwork, which is mostly scary monsters made out of clay with a dead person for flavoring, and also crayon drawings of monsters. She's taking a lot of inspiration from the Little Fears game, which is cool. I think it would be neat to take a ceramics class, but I just don't have time for it. Which is probably for the best as I'm not very good at visual arts or design. I'm okay with words, I'm pretty decent with words actually, but I'm terrible at drawing and I'm not very good with making things with my hands. Aside from jewelry, I think my jewelry is okay.

Anyway. I went back to my room and poked at my thesis with a stick and got nowhere, and then I took it down to the computer lab where Shane and Phillip were working on their midterms and got about a page done. The problem is that chapter 2 is neuroscience, which I still haven't learned about, and chapter 3 is the scientific link between bipolar and creativity, which I only have one article to support yet. So by next week I'm supposed to have 11-15 pages for peer review, and I actually have... like four pages. Which makes me terribly sad. I have about ten articles I'm planning on reading in the train or in the car to MA this weekend, because I just haven't had the time for them yet. But they're mostly on the neuroscience. I need more studies backing up the link and I don't know where to get them. The one I have was only published this year, but most of the studies it refers back to are from the 80s and early 90s, and I was told to work with research from the past five years primarily. Which is hard to do if nobody is actually doing studies...

So I don't love my thesis, but I do love pretty much everything else that happened today.

I love choir. I love participating in the creation of music, which for me is a strictly vocal process because I can't play any instruments. I am a first soprano, which means I hit the high notes, and I do. I love to sing. I used to sing all the time to myself, and I've kind of stopped doing that now that I have a roommate, and I miss it.

I liked choir well enough under Professor Thoburn, when we were doing a lot of really old music and a lot of sacred music, but I LOVE choir now under Dr. Johengen, because we're doing almost entirely poetry set to music, and none of it is archaic, and all of it sounds really pretty. I like Dr. J a lot. He calls us "friends" and makes a lot of jokes and he's just a really nice guy.

I tried to recruit all my male friends to choir this semester, because we only have three men in the choir now, but I got blown off by almost exactly every single one I asked. The only one who put any serious thought into it was Phillip, and he decided that he didn't have enough time in his schedule to do it, but I really appreciate that he actually thought about it instead of just flat out saying no. And he might do it next semester.

But a lot of my female friends are in choir with me. Shane and Mary and Emily are altos, and Sarah Clark is a first soprano like me, so we stand together all the time. And last year I used to take a lot of my cues from her, but I'm holding my own pretty well this year. I'm never going to be a soloist, but I'm a solid choir member and my voice blends well with others.

And my love of choir has a lot to do with my love of music in general, but I'll save that for a later post this month.

Yoga is fucking amazing.

No, seriously. I went into class feeling like I wanted to punch someone in the face, and by the time I left I felt totally peaceful. A little sweaty, but peaceful. I really love doing yoga. My class ends next week on Thursday, and then the second half of the semester starts up and I have class at a different time. So instead of Tuesday/Thursday from 7 to 8, it will be just Tuesday from 7 to 8:40. I think she promised to do more breathing work in the longer class, which is good because I'm kind of done with ujjayi breath, I want to learn something else.

Also, I hate the lotus position. I can't get my feet that high up on my thighs. I just don't bend that way and it hurts to try.

Today: I love tea time! Mary started the Tea Time Club this year, which is basically just an excuse for a bunch of us to get together and try each others' tea and play Scrabble and watch things on each others' computers. I look forward to these Scrabble games all week long, even if I do get my ass handed to me by Phillip just about every single game. Seriously, he plays like some people perform surgery. It's all precision and the absolute best possible move. If I wasn't always playing against him, I would like to just stand behind him and watch him shuffle tiles around. I am pretty used to dominating at Scrabble, it's kind of astonishing to me to lose so often. And today I was punished for my arrogance with hands full of vowels all the time, and barely broke 100, it was pathetic. But I did get to play "lieu", which is a pretty awesome word.

Also, I love roleplaying. I haven't done paper-and-dice roleplaying with people I actually like since I was playing D&D and Little Fears with Pedro and Sunny and Cindy and Kim back in like 2003-2004, and Phillip's games are just so fantastic. He is a really great GM. This Little Fears game is SCARY AS FUCK. So far I'm the only character who's made it into Closetland, but he killed off two other players' family members tonight so I feel like I got off fairly easy. I have an ACTION PLAN for getting my sister out of Closetland and punishing the douchebag kid who makes fun of my autistic sister, and I have a probably false sense of security that he won't kill off an autistic kid or a single mom. I could be wrong. Tonight he brought us into this tiny room in the basement of Zabriskie and by the time we left four hours later I had a migraine headache from being hyperalert and terrified and also there were spiders. And next session he said he's going to bring us into an even worse place. I'm pretty sure wherever we go there will be more spiders. Have I mentioned that I really hate spiders?

But, as awesome as the Little Fears game is, I am SO MUCH MORE EXCITED for Spirit of the Century. Because that game is not scary at all. It is 100% awesome and fun and badassness, and I get to be snarky and heroic and super cool, and right now I am stuck in a room that is slowly filling up with liquid mercury! and I don't know how the fuck I'm going to get out of it, but I know I WILL get out of it, because this is Spirit of the Century and the whole point is doing impossible shit and making it look good! I am probably about 300% more into SotC than I am into Little Fears, and I am still really into Little Fears.

So anyway yes: today I love tea and roleplaying, and by tea and roleplaying I really mean my friends. Two years ago I had nobody to talk to. Now I have friends EVERYWHERE I GO. I see people I like on an hourly basis. I never go a full day without seeing at least five people I really appreciate. I have eaten maybe one or two meals alone in the past two weeks. I am going to miss my social life when I have to leave Wells. I am going to miss these people. I almost started crying today thinking how much I'm going to miss these people, but it is stupid to cry while I still have them, so I am going to appreciate the fuck out of them until May, and then I will start crying.

So for my October project I am just going to post about things I love. Not necessarily about fall, just about my life right now in general. So for yesterday:

I love Apples to Apples! And I love combining groups of friends! Usually my groups of friends are fairly discrete, there are the Sex Collective and SAGA people and there are the Campus Greens people and there are the stoner people, and a couple of people fall into two groups but nobody falls into all three groups but me. So last night I combined the SAGA people with the Campus Greens people and we all had a lot of fun! Shane ended up winning the game with 12 cards, I think Mary had 11 and I had 10. And it was just a really good time being silly with a whole lot of people I like very much.

Also I love being able to sit with people at dinner. I like adding people to my list of acceptable dinner partners. Last night I had dinner with Will and Peter and Rita and Shane, I have eaten individually with Will and Peter but never with both of them together and not with Rita too, and it's just really entertaining to figure out the different things people will talk about and the different ways friends will tease each other and just how people behave in general. Which is probably why I'm a psych major.

Yesterday was a very good day. :)