So last night we watched the year's last episode of Prison Break, and all I have to say is "omgwtF *flail*" Yeah. Just, okay, at least March isn't May? But March is still a long, long time to wait.

And last night we also played Dungeons and Dragons (or as I called it when mom was in earshot, Corridors and Centaurs), which is probably not the first time I've played D&D? But definitely the only memorable time. Eheee. I played a half-elf rogue who spent most of the adventure berating his travelling buddy (Kristin's human fighter) and, um, doing roguely things like disarming traps and, uh... translating? Yes. xD It was great fun, I hope we have time for another adventure before they have to go.

I don't feel quite as sick today, which, you know, yay. A vague sense of quease somewhere along my esophagus is way preferable to "omg gonna hurl" right in the back of my throat all day. Yeaaaah.

And today, of course, is the MCR concert. Which, agh, Canada. And crowds. And MCR fans are skeery pitsters, from what I hear. I don't know if I should bring a water bottle or a light buckler. xD

Okay, okay, back to work.

$116 on one that I shouldn't, to get seven.

1 plus 18 makes 19 altogether.

2000 in one day, but only 780 for November...

T-minus 36 hours and counting.


...or, rationally put:

I spent $116 on BPAL, and I had to put it on the Credit Card I'm Not Supposed To Use. Given, one of the bottles is for Shell, but that's still six bottles for me. @_@ (Snow Moon, Pink Phoenix, Three Witches, Stardust, The Bow and Crown of Conquest, and The City in the Sea, omfg!)

I made a new character. >_> Played by Jason Dohring. And he's French-Canadian! And he has a fraternal twin. Played by Teddy Dunn. *ded* So now I'm up to 19.

Yesterday I wrote 2000 words in ficlets, but notfornano hasn't been touched since November 1. I? kind of lose, but I'd rather write for my friends anyhow.

36 hours from now, I will be on a train going to New York City. *SPAZ* I still have to pack: one change of clothes, one charger for iPod, one charger for cell phone, one toothbrush, one hairbrush, three gift packages of assorted size and contents, one DVD, one scarf, one box of BPAL and assorted smaller boxes, one pair of sexy silk Chucks. I cannot forget. (things I do not need: one coat, highs in the 50s and lows above freezing = hoodie/blazer will be adequate; one computer, will hijack Ai's new one periodically; blankets/pillows.)

GAH. I HATE CHARTER OR MY MODEM OR SOMETHING. SOMETHING IS GOING WICKED WRONG.

-_- If I'm talking to you and I suddenly cut out, it's probably because my STUPID-ASS COMPUTER keeps having to (and FAILING TO) renew its IP address for some ungodly reason.

>O

NO LOVE. CHARTER COMMUNICATIONS MINUS MINUS.

*breathe*

So I got to bed around, oh, five a.m. Dying dead of sleeploss, but happy. xD Yesterday was an amazingly profitable day; my Vince Noir outfit is literally one component away from completion. :D Also, omgsocks. I LOVE THESE SOCKS THEY FEEL LIKE CLOUDS.

And then I had a dream about a bunch of characters that have never met all shopping together at Bed Bath and Beyond. xD Which, you know, makes more sense if it's PBs, since Ville Valo and Bam Margera are all tight and stuff, but no, it was Kai and Pax, and Kai was teasing Pax about buying black satin king-sized sheets and Pax was all "Shut up, I get twice as laid as you do."

xD

And, you know, I overslept until 10:45. Oops. And last night my little brother was on my case about getting a real job, and also invited me along to smoke with him on a more regular basis. xD Both of which I'm considering.

And now... mostly awake, mostly cheerful, writing and happy and going RIGHT THE HELL TO SLEEP once I'm out of work. Because, snooze. What? Control my RP habit? No, no, I'll just sleep at different times. Right.

So this character site I've been on and off mentioning.

Mostly off because I fear RL people knowing what I get up to. xD

But anyhow, this site. With little profiles of all my original characters. Is just about finished, I have a profile and a half to finish, so I'm posting it for you all to see because it's close enough and knowing you all can see it will force me to finish tomorrow. xD


So here it is. I Hear Voices. And, also, stole the idea from _angsty just like I did the site in the first place; IHV: The Writing Project, one drabble a day, each day assigned a certain set of characters. It'll keep me writing forever. xD


So, yes. You can see what I do all the time now. :D

LJ is just... a total non-priority right now. I've been making so few updates, I feel... okay, I don't feel guilty, I just feel lame for not having anything better to update with.

Yesterday Kristin and I went to Lums for dinnerkfast. xD Seriously, the good times. Also, Phil Collins loves me. I'm like the high priestess of easy listening. Or the oracle or something. I TOTALLY CALLED IT.

So, um, have you guys seen the BMW movies with Clive Owen? Hotness, is all I'm saying. Okay, I'm also saying I ordered the DVD. Come on, it was like $4 for hotness at my eternal beck and call. Mmm, Clive Owen. (How fickle my tastes are.)

What else... I got Igby Goes Down for $7 last week, I'm going to be rewatching that soon. Um, still haven't watched Pete and Pete, I don't know what I'm waiting for. (*cough*netflixmovieshadforamonthohgod*cough*)

I have packages to mail tomorrow morning, BPAL out the wazoo. Yay for sellinz. Also I have to deposit money in my account so I can pay for my brother's new used X-Box on eBay. And hopefully, BPAL arriving tomorrow. *crosses fingers*

Um um um. Julia's birthday. She got an iPod Nano and a cat. We're keeping Oreo for real. I'm very happy about that, she's a sweet cat. I should post those pics, except, lazy. I should also be making a music post, but lazy and I have no theme...

um, yeah. I'm boring, and my life is RP now, and that's ok with me. Because I'm having fun.

oh, right. speaking of RP: if I show you something and you express no interest, I will not push it. If you actively express lack of interest, I will assume you want no part of it. So if A and B are true, and C is a no-comment post saying how left out you feel IMMEDIATELY AFTER a post saying you don't want in except just to be in, you're not even interested, and it's not even a formal game, it just kind of grew around a character I made and one someone had already and one someone made.... and we all play together in other games... and you don't even want in, let me reiterate this again, since you kept pointing it out... If A and B are true, I am not understanding why C is true. k?

*drags the dramallama out back and shoots it, indulges no further*


...okay, I just downloaded Golddigger, I think I need to go die now. xD

Color me delighted.

No, for real.

I slept for about 11 hours, woke up to INSANE amounts of BPAL (no, really insane: 4 bottles, 10 paid imps, and 8 frimps), and that thing I was worried about yesterday? Has resolved itself BEAUTIFULLY.

Also, my sisters found a cat, a cute little black and white darling with seven toes on each paw, and we've given her a flea bath and a collar and I'm not sneezing quite so much after handling her, and she purrs like a little motor if I so much as look at her sideways. And the dogs have stopped trying to lick her and she's stopped hissing at them. So we may have a new kitty, omg, I've wanted a kitty since I was little and never got one because my dad hates cats and I'm allergic.

And, god, I love it when RP things go better than I think they will. And new games, and rainy slow days, and brownies, and I smell really good, and this is so good.

I think I will finish putting away my clothes, go pet tha cat, and go to bed. :D

I wish things would work out.

to clarify: things rarely end how they begin, or even how they middle. that would be a nice outcome here. to not end as it began or middled.

and just because things spiraled out of control doesn't mean it can't be brought back under it. if you want to break plans say so, don't just let the self-destruct button hit again. adapting > annhiliating.

Avoidance scores: Danielle 15, reality 1!

Yeah. 15 characters. 15 original characters. All of whom have been played at some point, seven.. seven? yeah, seven of which are in active logs/threads right now.

This is a mixture of pride, sick amusement, and just plain amazement.


I'm cleaning under my bed again, trying to make room for... something. I was aiming for the cedar chest, but I'll settle on a few milk crates for my sweaters. I really need to make that "this is my house" picture post I meant to... like, three months ago. Oops.

Today my little brother discovered how to steal DVDs from Wal-Mart. He came home with, no joke, eight DVDs and two bonus discs. My brother is ballsy.


I was cleaning, and I had on my 80's playlist, and my dad was singing along. To over half the songs. SCARY, but HILARIOUS.

Oh, BPAL! Got a bottle of Strawberry Moon, it smells like the best memories of the Jubilee House in summer. Definitely wearing it tomorrow. And I found out that Somnus really is a sleeping potion, it smells like Nana and Poppy's old apartment and lulled me to sleep really easily. Wearing it again tonight.


While I was cleaning I found my second-semester notebook. There were a few writing seeds there that I'm going to try to grow out, that'll be fun.

I can't believe I have fifteen characters. xD

I'm trying to make an autumnal soundtrack. Nothing to do with leaves; this is trying to evoke that smokey, crisp-edged feeling, the warm quality of the light in the midafternoon and the coldness of the clear blue skies. The feeling of things fading and crumbling and dying, for a little while, so they'll come back later and better.

It's not going very well yet. Too much interpersonal indie, I think, but indie does a good job at that feeling...

Aching so much. I need to not need any more pills until I get back to college and get my insurance back, because omfg I'm running out of everything, naproxen and zyrtec and gah.

Tomorrow I will find the notebook with all the early summer notes in it, and I will finish Matt and Ben and Julian's pages like that, and I will finish Greg and Al and Sean's, and maybe try to finish Carter's history, and I will fix the image map and then hey, did I mention I was making a website where all my original RP characters live? Yeah. I'm almost done. Then I just need to put up all their soundtracks, but that's less pressing.

Speaking of RP, jesus god, I'm almost RPed out. Seriously, months-old characters suddenly getting play is awesome, brand-new characters just to play with someone specific is also cool, and I'm honestly going to just pop from all the clamor in my head. xD


Last night all I wanted to do was cry, and I'm sorry about that. I felt okay today. Spent all day in pajamas on the couch, getting fat and working on my carpal tunnel syndrome, and I feel okay.

Yeah, I'm okay.


edit: justanact, would it be okay if I used a For The Kid In The Back song on my mix? I might be putting it up here for general downloads, so I'd like to get your permission before I go off doing that. ♥

Now that poetry has been handled, I suppose I can actually make a post. Since I haven't done that in two days. Meep.

Friday there was a movie, and it was good. Cry_Wolf. Not as scary as I thought, much better than I'd dared to hope. A male scream queen! Run bitch run as applied to a cute British boy! What's not to love? Plus, it was excellently executed. I give it thumbs up.

You know you've reached your limits for your mall when even shoplifting gets boring. The next time I'm in, I have to fill out applications for places. I'm thinking movie theater, FYE, Bath and Body Works, Hot Topic, Borders, and maybe Sears. The holiday crush is almost upon us, after all, and my dad's been hinting me toward getting something else to do after the officeworkday is done. So, yeah.

Saturday... was yesterday. Jessica's birthday, and oh crap, I forgot to take pictures like I wanted to! Anyhow it was an adorable box full of smelly fun things Kristin and I went in together to get her and fill with imps. A box, 10 imps, soap, candles, lots of smelly fun and a rubber duck. xD And Kristin's mom made yummy spice cake, and we did LOTR puzzles, and messed with the fog machine and I tormented cats with bellyrubs. xD And we drove around listening to what I swear is just someone's iTunes library on random, it's the best radio station ever.

Today, honestly, was a fun kind of bust. After church we went to the Jade for lunch and Dennis and I left early, ended up at Bootleggers smoking up in the tower on the miniputt course with George and Matt. So I drove around all afternoon with my little brother and his friends, listening to rap and enjoying it a little too much, now that I think about it, man, those were some awfully misogynistic lyrics but some killer beats. Hm. And then I came home and flopped and have been steadily working on getting a character site together for all my RP boys (and girl). Aside from all the chunky information bits, I'm done with four of them, halfway there on three, and not even touched on four. (I have too many characters.) And once I finish it, I still have the issue of not owning any webspace, which I should do something about.


Let's see, other news. I'm thinking about making a friendscut, mostly just to trim off people who don't post, but kind of for people I don't think I have much in common with. So if you're sick of me clogging your flist, say so and we can do a friendly mutual cut. :D

I've gotten upwards of a gig anf a half of music from Glass Danse, an album-share-type music blog. It's hot. Except for the rapidshare thing, and I got so ticked with the waiting that I kind of bought a month's subscription and scoured out the archives in one night. So if you want anything from there and you catch me online, let me know and I may already have it. xD You know I love to share.

I'm so antsy waiting on the mail now, it's getting to the verge of my pouncing the mailman when he comes in. *_* "DID YOU LEAVE A PACKAGE AT MY HOUSE? Okay have a nice day now. :D" And my BPAL box is literally on the verge of overflowing. I may have to relocate bottles into one box and imps in another... Or, you know, sell some instead of giving it away. xD Much as I like sharing, it's not the brightest idea to just hand out all these things I've been pouring my paychecks into. (Except the things I got to send to people. And I need to figure out who gets what and whether it's just safer to wait until visiting or risk the mail.) And, um, three pending lab orders. I suck.

....and it's almost 2 am, and I have work in the morning, so let's consider this wrapped up. *smooches for you all*

first order of business: omfg HIM in November *FLAILS*

*breathes*

*FLAILS SUMMORE OMG*

November 18. Friday, Hammerstein Ballroom. So probably taking the bus in Thursday (if I take the 11:30, I'll make it there by dinnertime...) and if the office is closed before Thanksgiving, I can stay until Monday or Tuesday. And if I book the tickets early enough, it's only $78 round-trip. (Which is much better than $125.) *FLAIL*

second order of business: household rearrangements.

My mom just took off for Pennsylvania until Tuesday, taking Rachael with her. Until my dad gets home tonight, it's just me and Julia and Dennis in the house. Before he gets back, I really need to clean my room (I know, I've been saying it all week) but when I get home I'm just gonna put on some slam-jam rock and bop my way around until everything is in its place.

Maybe tonight I can watch Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels with my dad. I think it's the kind of movie he likes.. not sure, but think... So. :D

third order of business: talking.

COME ON PEOPLE GET GOOGLE TALK AND TALK TO ME. On the off chance you don't have GMail yet, I'll send you an invite! C'mon. I need to put this new microphone to good use.

fourth order of business: new icons.

I just uploaded/deleted/renamed a few, so that meme I did last night? Obsolete already. xD Oops. At least now I have an icon here for almost all of my roleplaying puppets over on GJ. :D

SPEAKING of puppets, To Die For Round 6! Play with us! This is a short game, just two weeks, set in a summer camp, it starts Sunday! Make yourself a character and come plaaaay with uuuus.

.....and I'm spent for the moment! :D

Okay, abandoning the angst because it hurts to think about! Back to fluffier topics and greener pastures.

BPAL: omg *eats Tulszcha with a spoon* This is so delicious. Soft cool mints and something crisper and chillier just underneath.. but it fades so quickly! ;_; I'm going to have to really slather this one on, which is BAD because it's an LE and god, I'm gonna be paying through the nose... Speaking of paying through the nose, I just shelled out $30 for a bottle of Oisin. I can't help it. Irish herbs and flowers and white musk, just thinking about it makes me all melty. So. I am both an addict and an idiot.

I need to start supporting this habit on street corners, I think. "Will blow for BPAL."

Speaking of street corners, Carol started a new RP that's just really awesome: Above Love (and here is the website), which is set in a brothel in NYC and just. So many ideas percolating. I'm still working on my first character, I might (might, possibly, if I think I can cope with another one running around in my head) make another one. So yes. If you like RP, check it out because Carol is teh rock and this game is going to be fantastic.

(and I know it's been a while since I've said anything RPish here, but man, all of a sudden there's so many new ones-- Christien, Colin, Al, Jay, now Dorian. MADHOUSE)

And, um, bras. Anyone feel like having a bra party? xD Or letting me feel them up? From a distance... I'm trying to convince my brother to get his friends together for a party, the boys can guess the girls' cup sizes and then I'll size them and see who was right the most xD Which is horribly chauvinistic, but as many girls as he knows, it might work.

Okay. Work. And stuff. TYPING, WHEE. No, I'm not manic at all at the moment.