Things I need to do tonight:
-look up books on PBS for Dad
-look up weather for Massachusetts this weekend
-pack for Massachusetts
-write the handporn
-either get the old iPod functioning or steal Julia's
-refill pill box for the week
-make sure to bring books and a notebook
-log in to online classes and see what's up with those
-finish packing boxes for takmarierah and moorishflower and ask Mom to mail them tomorrow.. are post offices even open tomorrow or is it a holiday? Huh.


So I took the thingy before going to the mall, and not only did I not have much of an effect, but it didn't even kill the pain from my uterus. LAME. Oh well, that's what I get for waking up in Vegas for doing bad things.

I'm very interested in the results of that poll, though. I may try and start a discussion about it when I get home, because I'd like to see in-depth what people's opinions are. A lot of people are prescribed anti-anxiety meds, and I kind of knew that would happen, and more of you are against trying other pharmaceuticals than painkillers or anti-anxieties, which I didn't expect-- I thought it'd be straight across for all of the "no way"s.

And, all the people who said "DON'T DO DRUGS"... only one of you knew me back when I actually did drugs, like, smoked pot every day. I have been pretty much clean from weed since October, with a few widely-spaced exceptions, and there's really no point to getting stoned without people anyway. I am a social drug user, lol, not having any friends here keeps me good.


Anyway, speaking of the mall, I made out like a bandit today. :3 Three books (a Star Trek Mirror Universe book, the Star Trek manga collection, and In Defense of Food by Michael Pollan, who fucking rocks), a sports bra (oh my god I haven't had a sports bra that fit since HIGH SCHOOL I am so happy about this), a really cute tank/boyshorts set, two pairs of panties and a third coming in the mail because they didn't have them in my size (mint green-striped boyshorts, sofuckingadorable), a really nice-smelling lotion from Victoria's Secret, a not-as-nice-but-free body spray from Aerie, and lip gloss from Aerie that was also free because this month is my birthday. :D

And I found out that Apple is having a promotion: buy a Mac for college and get a free iPod touch. DO WANT. I've been thinking about a Macbook for a while and I'm definitely going to have the money to do it from financial aid, so I just need to convince my dad to let me put it on one of his cards and pay him back as soon as the money comes in, which should be around the beginning of September for the SA and the end of September for the Pell. Ooooo. People with Macbooks, any suggestions on what a devoted Windows XP user needs to transition easily?


...I really can't believe that it took me this long to spend $30 when I got it from Laurel two weeks ago. I'm proud of myself, usually cash lasts... not very long at all... in my wallet. Speaking of which, I need a new wallet, I've had mine for years now (it says "Fall Out Boy" on it and has rhinestones...) and it's kind of falling apart.


Spending time with small portions of my family reminds me how much I love each of them. Spending time with all of them usually has the opposite effect... but today I have had emphasized how much I love all of them (except Rachael, but I love her too, lol)... now if I could just find my cat, love would be complete.

Okay, I am going to go attack that to do list and shut up. xD

If my news came delivered like this every day, I would pay more attention to it.

( now hold still so I can do the crossword )

Mmm, yes.


It's ridiculously bright out, and won't get over freezing today, which seems like a rip-off considering how nice it's been lately. Come on, March, get out of the way so we can have April already. Because after April is May and in May is STAR TREK eeeee!

Early-morning staring contests with the dog. At least I won. xD This is the second time I've dreamed about piecing together living things on ZQ's order. Not puppies this time, but I can't remember exactly what they were. I'm not your Dr. Frankenstein, Zach, if you're gonna be in my dreams you better be half-dressed or less.

I need a plan, so here is a tentative one:
-waffles
-keep reading The World Without Us
-laundry
-try those chai meringues? mmm.
-keep writing challenge fic
-post applicable HAKM fics to rare_heroes
-clean closet enough to reclaim some floor space
--but most important is the waffles

PLEASE NOTE: when I said I broke the fandom in my prior post, I was making a backhanded and probably only-understandable-to-myself reference to Nice Job Breaking It, Hero. Damn you, TVTropes. MEA CULPA. AGAIN. can everyone just please forget everything that happened on ths journal yesterday? please?

So I think I've figured out what my thing right now is. I seem to be doing the opposite of a knee-jerk reaction. That's a negative sort of phrase, right? It brings to mind doing something possibly stupid just to be contrary.

I'm not sure what to call mine, but I'm tentatively going with the kick-hug reaction. Something shitty happens and I try to make some good out of it. My hat gets thrown away? I suggest a lost and found box. Somebody purposefully writes bad fic to prove a point (in a really poorly-thought out way)? Double the hug: I want to know what their ship is. I'll read a bunch of it. I only comment on things I enjoy, and my enjoyment is based on quality of writing, not pairing. (Trust me, I have read and enjoyed some things I would never have considered, because they came highly recommended.) Also, I kind of want to form a concrit community-- real constructive criticism, in the way that means an author can make changes to improve their story.

I just don't want to have to moderate that comm. I don't have the emotional stability to deal with asswads that need to be kicked out. I know most of fandom (the part I know, anyhow) can actually play in the same sandbox, but some kids just have to kick sand in people's faces.

you guys I'm totally a bleeding heart fangirl, I'm already a bleeding heart liberal, HOW MUCH CAN ONE HEART BLEED (5-6 pints unless you continue bleeding after death in which case 10-12 oh man why did I look that up Army first aid is kind of queasy-making)

Yeah, I only got two hours of sleep, it's kind of showing, isn't it.


Today's to-do list:
-call YMCA (BEFORE NOON)
-bake (Carrot cake? Baked donuts? Chai cupcakes?)
-get a jump start on class notes, now that I've been doing them for three days already, might as well get next week done
-write angry letter to counseling center To Whom
-finish stupid fic that's open, work on the tea and honey fic
-take a goddamn nap, jeez
-chores :(

Memery:

So, speccygeekgrrl, your LiveJournal reveals...

You are... 18% unique (blame, for example, your interest in you're probably a douchebag) and 3% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy yoga). When it comes to friends you are popular. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are wary of trusting strangers. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional.

Your overall weirdness is: 48

(The average level of weirdness is: 29.
You are weirder than 86% of other LJers.)

Find out what your weirdness level is!

The Blogalyser reveals...

Your blog/web page text has an overall readability index of 11.

This suggests that your writing style is conventional
(to communicate well you should aim for a figure between 10 and 20).Your blog has 19 sentences per entry, which suggests your general message is distinguished by verbosity
(writing for the web should be concise).

CHARACTER MATRIX

male		female
self		world
past		future

Your text shows characteristics which are 49% male and 51% female
(for more information see the Gender Genie).
Looking at pronoun indicators, you write mainly about yourself, then the world in general and finally your social circle. Also, your writing focuses primarily on the present, next the past and lastly the future.

Find out what your blogging style is like!

You know why I don't talk about my social circle? BECAUSE IT ENTIRELY EXISTS ONLINE and everybody I would talk about is on everyone else's flists already. xD And I don't talk about the future because IT SCARES ME.

I like having a weirdness of 48 though. That's encouraging.


I don't think I've mentioned this outside of the "hi new peeps" post which most of you probably skipped, so: it has been two months since I have had a cigarette. Which, according to those quitting timelines, means my lungs should have returned to full capacity. Cool.


Things to do today:
-finish homework (@ 2hrs)
-shower (@ 1/2 hr)
-call YMCA (@ ?)
-see Dr. Mehrhof (@ 1hr)
-class (@ 2 1/2 hrs)
-bake?
-write (any and all times)

Xena is sleeping on the floor next to my chair, as she does most mornings and a lot of nights. She is getting to be a stinky old dog. Like... elderly dog farts. D: I love her too much to kick her out, so I just burn a lot of candles...

At some point in the near future, I will get my ass in gear and make a rec post of all the awesome comment_fic I think people should read. Because you guys, there is some awesome action going on there.

The best part of making cookies: COOKIES FOR BREAKFAST. Omnomnomnom.

My plan today goes like this:
-read and take notes on Illustrated Guide to World Religions for the past two syllabus days
-write
-read and take notes on The Sacred Quest chapters four and five
-do laundry or clean or something
-RP (Gabrielle, N!Mohinder and Sanjog need to have a talk... and Henri and Luke are still being musical xD)
-reply to feedback ♥
-do February round-up post at drive_thru_rx
-stop downloading so much porn, what the hell, did I suddenly turn into a teenage boy? (but really, who can resist a Bewitched send-up called "Betwinked"? xD)
-DON'T NAP oops uh, going to take a nap now >.>

So, an important part of not going back to bed... is opening the curtains and blinds. Which I rarely do. xD I like my room to be shaded, thx, but it is not conductive to continued consciousness. xD

The heroes_exchange masterlist went up! Later today: recs post. (But right now, I'm posting the ones I wrote to my writing journal finally :3 )

My plan for today:

-finish SoG 2 (I REALLY MEAN IT)
-those two commentfics from yesterday
-keep up with RP
-import CD binder into iTunes
-listen to all the Ella Fitzgerald I downloaded last night
-laundry, including bedsheets
-try to make manticore!gabriel from the toy I got yesterday lol
-whitening thing
-go for a walk

Okay! I can do this. Yup. :D

All right. By an overwhelming margin, my iPod is Hiro-kun! ♥

Now, my plan for the day:
-finish costume!fic
-put away laundry
-get at least halfway through exchange fic
-clean up dressertop and bedside table
-start next part of shades of gray
-add at least three of the albums sitting on my desktop into iTunes


This should keep me busy... and today, Write or Die is my new beffie. :D

Woo, tomorrow will be busy. I miscalculated my appointment, it's at 3:30, not 11:30. So I'll be going to the SA with my dad around noon, hitting the DMV then, making a trip up to the college to talk proof of residence and old transcripts, coming back down for my appointment, and then I have class at 6. (wait! list form!)

-Shower before 10
-Call PHS, get transcript faxed to CCC
-study the manual before noon
-FIND BIRTH CERTIFICAT OMG AAAAH
-bring fee and ID to the DMV
-bring proof of residence to the college (tax forms?)
-(3:30) talk to Dr. Mehrhof about dizziness
-bring Sacred Quests and Sacred Texts to class
-(6) have all reading done


Today worked well. I didn't talk to Lisa about my issues at all. I showed her my (incomplete) 101 things list, and the only thing she laughed at was "get a lap dance." She was all, "...from a woman?" and I was like "...yeah? :D" I told her I was bi, it ain't a secret. I like boobies. So that was good. And then all the anticipation for Heroes... AND THEN HEROES \o/ And I only have 7 categories left for the awards to read! Yay!

FUCK YEAH NEIL PATRICK HARRIS. Go. It's legendary.

A very interesting bit of video journalism on the financial role of Mormons in the Prop 8 fight. Yeah, I'd like to see those records, too.

Okay, hitting the sack so I can be bright-tailed and bushy-eyed for the morning.

So I forgot to take my pills, and basically didn't have the verve to get out of my chair all day. So, uh, here's my to-do list for Friday.

Do This Stuff:
-finish Sunday and/or More Than the Sum of Its Parts (and find a better title)
-add books to Paperbackswap
-clean room
--this means put away clothes
--and take care of that box next to the bed
--and hey, how about those bookshelves?
-read over Driver's guide
-pimp fic all over the place
-do laundry


At least I got the awards reading done... >> And I caught up my masterlist of stories, which I should probably do a little more often.

Since I did so much writing this month, I am setting myself an actual challenge for February into March... yes, I'm doing a prompt table. I set it up already, and even filled in the author's choices... so now I have to prepare myself to write 30 pieces of non-sappy, un-loveydovey fic. We'll see how long it takes for me to break and write about sparkly unicorns wearing starry ribbons in their manes and farting blissful rainbow dust.

Okay. Tonight, I am taking that happy little knockout pill, and setting myself back into order, I hope.

Once upon a time, I didn't post eight times a day...

Yeah, I only slept for two hours and I don't like taking sleeping pills after 4:30. So it looks like I'm up for a bit.

Out of my list of things to do yesterday, I only got one of them done. I think it's because I didn't put them in list form... so here is my list for today.

Do This Stuff:
-finish effing Sunday so I can stop bitching about it
-finish Section 2 for the awards
-add books to Paperbackswap
-clean room
--this means put away clothes
--and take care of that box next to the bed
--and hey, how about those bookshelves?
-read over Driver's guide (if I do this once a day I should be golden by next week)
-pimp fic all over the place so I stop feeling like I need to ride the waaaahmbulance
-take a super long shower

I should put my glasses on and start on the Best Mohinder Characterization, but that would mean I have to move... ehn. ehhhhhn.

If I finish either of the two stories I have open to work on right now, I will break 35,000 words.

Ha, how typical. Talking about what I should do makes me tired. Okay, I'll go with it.

AHAHAHAHAHA ONTD BROKE THE SERVERS AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I am working hard to make today WIN. This involves the application of my attention toward doing that thing I'm not talking about today, finding icons that will give me more range of characters and emotions, finishing Section 2 for the awards (I'm more than half done), and eventually cleaning my room. I also have a whole crateful of books to add to Paperbackswap, and I have to study (read: skim) the DMV driver's guide so I can get my permit for the second time, because I am FAIL at driving.

I should have done that in list form. Oh well.

Speaking of FAIL, Know Your Meme! It cleared it all up, from the beginning of the meme to the "Epic" threshold.

Butcher is just now starting to sleep on my bed when this chair is occupied. He even stayed with me a little while when I went to bed last night. I get cuddles from my boycat ♥

I lost all my links because Chatzy hates Firefox. So from now on, my Broomcloseting will take place via IE. Which actually makes things easier, switching windows instead of tabs. Win!


My cousin's sister-in-law is a vet, and she asked the best way to put down a rodent, and apparently the only acceptable painless way is to break its neck. Which I completely cannot do. I would have nightmares forever and cry for like a week. But Heather's tumors are getting huge, yeah, there's a noticeable secondary one. :/


Let's end this on a better note. x.x Oh! I was supposed to make omelets an hour ago, but my mom is home so I'm going to beg her for french toast. Mmmm, french toast.

I can't disconnect Sylar from Billy Joel songs in my head. It's kind of hilarious. Only the Good Die Young? Keeping the Faith? And yesterday I was completely losing my shit listening to Always A Woman and thinking about Gabrielle.

I finished Saturday, woohoo, and Sunday is coming along like a dream. And then I will have finished a fic series! A seven-parter! This is speccygeekgrrl history! \o/ Once I'm done with this... one more part of Art Appreciation, and the V-Day fic. I am so psyched to tally up my writing for January. :D

Couldn't reschedule my missed appointment for this week, so I'm going back on schedule with Lisa next Monday. Then Tuesday I have an appointment with Dr. Mehrhof. As soon as we get a call from the YMCA, I will have an actual weekly schedule! I hope they have yoga classes at the Y, it's easier to do with a live instructor than a DVD.


To do list for tomorrow:
-shower. like, first thing.
-laundry! just one basket, for a change.
-homework
-a- response to quotes
-b- reading
-find flex binder so the big notebook isn't needed
-pay tuition online
-new ink cartridge?
-Jennifer coming sometime in the afternoon...
-pimp fic!
-class at 6

Woo. Okay. I swear, Wednesday I will not talk about fic all day long. I will be all interesting and witty and relevant. I promise. Just not today. >>

My parents will be home in a couple of hours. My goals before then:
-take a bath
-start dinner (om nom nom curry)
-play more Trauma Center


My goals for the rest of the day:
-retagging on delicious? (ohgod.)
-bookshelf, still.
-Saturday. :D


I had a dream I was back in Plattsburgh for some reason, and I asked the lady at the front desk for a copy of my transcript, and she was all "nope, closed" and I said "I'll pay double!" and she was like "okay, twenty bucks!" and that was like, quadruple, and I tried to get her to be sympathetic but she was a bitch. So I hit her in the head with one of those heavy hole-punchers.

I think I might possibly have some insecurity issues involving going back to school. xD


Also: I am weeding out my flist. Right now, only of communities, but if you want to not be on my list any more, this is your opportunity to ditch me without breaking my poor little heart, lol.

Oh my god, Trauma Center. The thing is, I got a secondhand copy of Second Opinion, so it didn't have the booklet... and I couldn't figure out what I needed to do with the defibrillator and I totally killed the guy from dumb. x.x But I learned! And I'm... well, not getting better, because I still haven't gotten anything above a C, but that's okay.

Heee Derek Stiles is adorable. And Dr. Weaver is a babe. xD *shallow*

I am fairly sure that my mom wanted my dad to return to Syracuse at 10:30. He just woke up. xD Ah, I love having a genetic excuse for my bad habits.

So. Plans for today:
-clean living room, sweep kitchen.
-laundry. all of it.
-finish Friday, at least begin Saturday.
-maybe attack bookshelf? maybe.
-MORE TRAUMA CENTER \o/

yays.

I do believe I will use this icon whenever discussing Trauma Center. Bloody Sylar ftw!


...the one good thing about it being really cold is that if you left out your drink and it's room temperature, it's still pleasantly cold enough to imbibe. However, if I leave a bottle in my windowsill, it freezes through...

To Do list for the long weekend of January 16-19

-keep up with dishes. don't just throw them in the sink, dumbass.
-keep up with animals. do not get exasperated when woken at ass-AM to let them out.
-relatedly, change rat cage. love on rat.
-put away all clothes. this will involve separating many out for donation to thrift store.
-bake.
-tidy bedside table and upper shelf of computer "desk".
-TRAUMA CENTER
-tidy and vacuum first floor.
-move boxes to basement.
-arrange bookshelf, already. find a way to keep it from leaning drunkenly to the right.
-continue nymphmomaniac. Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
-begin final part of art appreciation.
-finish ex machina.
-do not kill younger sister. (should not be too difficult)


Okay. ON TASK. I will cross these out as finished. Feel free to make fun of me if I do not cross at least three of these out per day.

MOTIVATION



also hey crafty friends

Can anyone think of anything creative to do with empty orange pill bottles? Because... between me, my dad, and my sisters, we have A LOT OF THEM. And it seems like a pity to just throw them out. Any suggestions?

I am up at a reasonable hour(?!) and so, I present a new to-do list, with a vow to accomplish as much of it by 3pm as I can:

-compact totes down, remove unnecessary ones to hall (at least two!)
-stuffed animals-- either wash them or find the febreeze at least
-shower first, then laundry
-work on bookshelves, at least enough to fit all the DVDs onto 2 shelves and find a place for the Palahniuk
-ginger cookies. OM NOM NOM


This is doable.

My parents are going at some point in the near future to see Julia. Apparently there's a chance she'll be coming home today, but that would suck for her, because until my parents get their new bed, her room is lacking one. They only just put her on a new med a couple of days ago. I don't think that's long enough to tell if she's all right or not.

It is a whooooole lot easier to record myself when they're out of the house though. >>

I have no idea why my mother won't wake me up to go help her... well, now I can do housework I've been putting off, at least.

Clearly, I NEED A TO-DO LIST!

-shift contents of two totes, fit them into one (totes doable, hahaha)
-take a shower
-change bedsheets
-laundry!
-work on fic (while waiting for laundry to finish)
-put away clothes (and that means all off them!)
-finish at least two Christmas card add-ins
-find stamps? or beg Mom to buy some. >>
-HEROES IS ON TONIGHT!

what is NOT on the list: naps. NO NAPS TODAY. NOT ALLOWED. My ass: in gear.

My dad didn't sleep at all last night either! And we're talking about trading sleeping pills, he's all "I have Lunesta, it's good stuff" and I'm like "ok here, trade you some Ambien for it" :D

The family that shares drugs together, gets hugs together...? Speaking of drugs, I bet I would sleep like an angel if I could smoke a joint. -_- Being clean is less fun when you have no real reason for it. (Well, besides being broke. Is it wrong that my anti-drug little sister can score weed just by being cute? Answer: yes, but I would take advantage of that.)

Right now, I couldn't sleep even if I wanted to, because I have all of my crafty stuff spread out on my bed, plastic drawers and pill bottles full of beads, tins of decade-old stationery, ribbons and fabric paint and fabric scraps, and oh my god I hoard so much crap it's unbelievable. BUT I MIGHT BE ABLE TO USE IT ONE DAY, my brain says, and so I keep it. No more! I am throwing out all of the ugly shit. :D

My mother wants me to read a book called The Shack, which is apparently ~~very spiritual and uplifting~~, and I want nothing to do with it, except she's my mom and I love her, which means I will humor her, if... I can find... where I put the book? Oops.

It's supposed to get up to 65 degrees today. Butcher has already taken up residence in the window, and his tail is hanging right. next to me. and all I want to do is fuck with him. :3 Heh.

Okay, here is my plan!
-Finish taking care of crafty stuff
-Clean the rat cage (poor Heather Ratface has a rat tumor :( why do all of my rats get cancer?)
-Take a shower!
-Do some laundry, omg, heap of it.
-read the shack I guess, ew
--and probably fall asleep, because that's what "inspirational" books do to me

Okay, I can handle that. Hell, I might be able to do all of that before lunch. I am fierce, I am determined, I am getting my ass off this chair!

Oh man, it is ridiculously windy out. Especially by the lake.

...you know, I live on the Finger Lakes now, and I'm not even sure which one it is down the street from me? That's kind of sad, huh. xD

Okay. So my to-do list today, and I only post these to shame myself into finishing them, is as follows:
-fill out the job applications I got yesterday
-find enough stamps to mail my ballot
-finish the HAKM ficlets (two to go) and the Halloween ficlet (it's not cute enough yet)
-laundry! like whoa.
-find the WD40 and make my door unsqueaky, to facilitate late-night sneaking around (or, you know, 3am snacks)
-sit my ass down and read more of A Lion Among Men


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...I think I'm going to start with laundry. And lunch. Om nom nom, leftovers.

Today's to-do list:
-Fill out that application (now that I've found my stash of pens)
-Bathe cats
-Get all empty boxes out of my bedroom
-Set up printer
-Hang wall scroll (figure this out, srsly)
-Deal with phone bill
-Presidential debate (for reals this time)
-Possibly make mom and dad watch 1x01 of Heroes (with dinner?)