Well. It's a good thing I have no money, or I would... have no money. 60 pills of Geodon = $582

whatthefuck how do they expect CRAZY PEOPLE to make enough money to get the pills to become SANE PEOPLE? Ugh. I hate capitalism. And I want to drive a nail through the, I don't know, some non-deadly body part, of everyone who opposes universal health care, in a big old "FUCK YOU" from everyone who needs these meds and can't get them.

Sigh.

Anyhow here are the last of the top fives.

blossommorphine wanted to know:

The colors, Duke! THE COLORS!
1. Grey/silver (specifically mourning dove grey, slate grey, Butcher grey, and stormcloud grey)
2. Light blue, like the peak of the sky at twilight blue
3. Frog green
4. Garnet red (not ruby, rubies are too pink, which is why I'd totally get a garnet and call it my birthstone anyway)
5. Really-good-weed orange. If you know what I mean, you know exactly the color.


Wastin' time...
1. Futzing around LJ/reading fanfic
2. Sleeping
3. Reading
4. Watching TV on my computer
5. Doing crossword puzzles


Goood food... bad food!
1. Double-thick milkshakes
2. Chocolate. Lots and lots of chocolate.
3. Pringles
4. Soda of any kind (but especially when mixed with liquor, lol)
5. Tiramisu


savorvrymoment asked for:
Technically, I could just pin this in with "kinks I blame on fandom" and "favorite tropes" but I'll try to be novel...
1. hell, I'll just group the top ones together: threesomes, fuck or die/amtdi/sex pollen/pheromones/whatever, hurt/comfort...
2. Physical restraint-- holding someone's hands above their head, pinning them to a wall, anything where one person's body is restricting the movement of another's... in a sexy way. xD
3. First times/getting someone to try something new/teaching someone. Letting someone do something you've never had done to you, or letting them guide you through what to do... that's hot.
4. Comeshots. I BLAME PERDI. But seriously, uh, I like it when someone comes on another person's chest/stomach/back/thighs/anything but the face and hair basically. Especially when it's a possessive thing. Mmhm.
5. Delicacy. Light teasing touches, writing on the body, tickling with a feather, using breath as a primary touch, fingertip/tonguetip trails... I like the subtle things, not just diving past foreplay. Mix this with canoodling or just making out and that's ACES.


MUSIC
1. Death Cab For Cutie
2. Ani DiFranco
3. Fall Out Boy
4. Regina Spektor
5. The Mountain Goats


I'm pretty much finished packing, and I'm going to take my first dose of the new med pretty soon. Mom brought me up to the mall for a haircut and by the time we got there they weren't taking any more walk-ins and we had to drive back and we hit every. fucking. red. light. between there and home, TWICE. And I did exactly what Lisa said I shouldn't do, and apologized and felt guilty over a bunch of things I couldn't control. Mom just shook her head and said "Remember the joke and the car accident? You've always been that way. I don't know what I did to make you like that." I was like three when that happened. What the hell does a three year old know about guilt? Except I took it on myself even that early.

I can't imagine how that would have been their fault. Then again, isn't everything our parents' fault? (at least according to my specializing-in-child-therapy counselor, it is... sounds like bullshit to me.)

Well. Not much to be done about it, right? Except identify the problem and try to stop when I recognize the behavior, which by the way doesn't really work, but okay.

what the hell, self, stop being such a Debbie Downer out of nowhere. I think I just need to eat something, I'm hungry.