rockin' geekgrrl, tweet tweet tweet

• 08:52 Very hungry. Do not want to move, except maybe back into bed. Not conductive toward getting things done. Not sure I care. sleep... #
• 09:27 I really, really want to draw neko!Hiro and kitsune!Ando, except I know my skillz are weak. also I still need to do homework CAFFEINE PLZ #
• 10:13 Come on, self, up and at 'em... no really... go get breakfast... ah, screw it. #
• 12:26 Is it just me, or is LiveJournal too busy sucking dicks to bother loading right now? #
• 12:45 My father makes THE most disturbing noises in his sleep. D: Not embarrassing, just... I worry for him. #
• 13:43 On Springer: "I must confess... I'm not pregnant" GOOD. YOU SHOULDN'T REPRODUCE. GTFO THE GENE POOL. #
• 13:53 Pudding cup + spoonful of dulce de leche + maraschino cherries = NOM NOM NOM BLISS #
• 13:57 Went to give sandwich crust to Ratface, Ratface not here. Fed it to the dog. Not very happy right now. :( #
• 15:05 I've gotten two things on my to-do list done... shower, and write... >.> and now I have my appointment... that's like, half the list. #
• 15:18 Huh. I only need to lose about four inches to have a ghetto-Mo 'do. I could do that myself... >.> #
• 15:22 Well, off to get my head checked. (possibly by a jumbo jet? it won't be easy but nothing is. WOOOOHOOO) #
• 16:15 Cranberry gum very disappointing. D: home fairly soon. Want to stop for espresso drink, doubt mother will agree. #
• 16:34 holy fuck, 69 messages? I've only been gone one hour, guys! but: drink achieved, hot barista ogled, life is good. The man with the scrip... #
• 16:35 ...pad said I look and sound very healthy, so no new pills, hooray! Now: 1 1/2 hrs til class. I'M DOING NOTES I SWEAR as soon as I check lj #
• 17:23 I actually think I can define Heroes fandom (at least our corner of it) in terms of a religion. Thank you, college education! :D #
• 17:43 Class in 15 minutes, DO NOT WANT... *sigh* I know once I get there I'll be glad to be there, but it's going that's the problem. #
• 17:46 Will tweet from classes, only get d messages on the phone, please entertain me my loves <3 #
• 19:22 I just got really good advice from my teacher on how to achieve my going-to-services-of-other-religions goal for 101/1001. Sweet! #
• 19:23 Also I think I'm in love with my teacher lol <3 I want to tell her my fandom=religion theory, but I already come off as a nutcase... #
• 20:25 See, I get to class and I have SO MUCH FUN (even though I'm "that student" lol I can't help it, if no one else answers then I WILL, BWAHAHA) #
• 20:27 p.s., she passed out chocolate before we watched a video on Buddhism, I am completely in love with her <3 Home in about 20min #
• 20:34 See, now I'm waiting without a book, so I have to amuse myself with tweeting. xD #
• 20:36 Oh wait, they're here for me! Julia's driving. Hrm. #
• 22:47 I am going to sleep until like 2pm tomorrow. Crash from a quadruple espresso drink is SAVAGE, guys. #
• 23:02 I would like to apologize to fandom at large.. I will resign my position as bishop of the rarepairing sect at once, and fade into obscurity. #
• 23:28 85 comments? Really? Shit, I should repost wanky things more often, they get attention! xD JOKE, JOKE. Never again, at least intentionally. #
• 00:14 Why is the serial killer in my head an alcoholic? I can't get drunk, why can she? >.< Bitch. #
• 00:53 Mountain Goats. "some things you do for money, and some you'll do for fun, but the things you do for love are gonna come back to you 1 by 1" #
• 00:54 "snakes in the grass beneath our feet, rain in the clouds above, some moments last forever and some flare out with love love love." #

LoudTwitter is looooud

Okay guys, I'm sorry for breaking the fandom, I promise not to do it again. (this is not feeling guilty for something that isn't my fault. If I had left the damn thing where it was, none of this would have happened. That said, I have come to terms with it, so don't try and tell me I didn't do anything, okay? I'm only taking responsibility for the reposting, you guys did all the wank on your own. [please note: this is affectionate and joking.]) I was going to go back and comment to all your opinions and stuff, but honestly? I don't think that would be healthy for my emotional state right now. So: thank you all for pitching in your opinions, and I am sincerely sorry (but not taking the blame) for any and all conflicts created as a result.

I was supposed to come up with a rough draft of an essay for Rachael tonight. It's only 1 am and I'm so fucking wiped. EMOTIONAL DRAIN: 95% COMPLETE. She'll be mad at me but I really can't bring myself to care.

I'm so tired I have been staring at a fic I was pouring out like water before class, now, nothing at all. I hate that. I don't know if I'm too warm or too cold right now, either.

Tomorrow I have to call the YMCA, get there to finalize everything, and hopefully I can hit the pool a.s.a.p. Swimming until I can't swim any more sounds appealing to me.


I wish I could write. I'll just take Ambien and stare at a candle until I fall asleep, and try to remember how to breathe in a calming way. I know there was something about switching off nostrils to balance out.


Oh look, it's an RP meme. I don't exactly have a lot of RP characters, but this could be fun anyway, so:

Give me a current character of mine and I will list for you their:
( stats and such )

I want a fucking cigarette.

PLEASE NOTE: when I said I broke the fandom in my prior post, I was making a backhanded and probably only-understandable-to-myself reference to Nice Job Breaking It, Hero. Damn you, TVTropes. MEA CULPA. AGAIN. can everyone just please forget everything that happened on ths journal yesterday? please?

So I think I've figured out what my thing right now is. I seem to be doing the opposite of a knee-jerk reaction. That's a negative sort of phrase, right? It brings to mind doing something possibly stupid just to be contrary.

I'm not sure what to call mine, but I'm tentatively going with the kick-hug reaction. Something shitty happens and I try to make some good out of it. My hat gets thrown away? I suggest a lost and found box. Somebody purposefully writes bad fic to prove a point (in a really poorly-thought out way)? Double the hug: I want to know what their ship is. I'll read a bunch of it. I only comment on things I enjoy, and my enjoyment is based on quality of writing, not pairing. (Trust me, I have read and enjoyed some things I would never have considered, because they came highly recommended.) Also, I kind of want to form a concrit community-- real constructive criticism, in the way that means an author can make changes to improve their story.

I just don't want to have to moderate that comm. I don't have the emotional stability to deal with asswads that need to be kicked out. I know most of fandom (the part I know, anyhow) can actually play in the same sandbox, but some kids just have to kick sand in people's faces.

you guys I'm totally a bleeding heart fangirl, I'm already a bleeding heart liberal, HOW MUCH CAN ONE HEART BLEED (5-6 pints unless you continue bleeding after death in which case 10-12 oh man why did I look that up Army first aid is kind of queasy-making)

Yeah, I only got two hours of sleep, it's kind of showing, isn't it.


Today's to-do list:
-call YMCA (BEFORE NOON)
-bake (Carrot cake? Baked donuts? Chai cupcakes?)
-get a jump start on class notes, now that I've been doing them for three days already, might as well get next week done
-write angry letter to counseling center To Whom
-finish stupid fic that's open, work on the tea and honey fic
-take a goddamn nap, jeez
-chores :(

My mother sent me an INSPIRATIONAL EMAIL with this image. The subject line of the forward was "God parting the sky"



All I see is goatse in the sky.

One hour of pilates = several hours of pain. Owwww. My muscles are sore from the back of my neck to my ankles. D:

( memes. )

Got exactly one thing on my to-do list done... whatever, it's not like I have anything else to take up my time. x.x

Oh, except now that I have a membership to the Y, I can go do a class every day. There's yoga two nights a week, tai chi in the afternoons on alternate days... I'm just sad the only Hatha Yoga class is at 9am on Saturday. noooooo way.

I'm so damn exhausted, I can't keep my eyes open long enough to follow a short fic. v.v