Generally I am not all that psyched about seeing my psychiatrist, but I am really anxious to see him tomorrow because maybe whatever he wanted to put me on last time I saw him will fix whatever is wrong with me right now. He wanted to switch me to something else at the same time he put me on Geodon, but I convinced him that maybe going one at a time would be better. Now I wonder if I was right.

I would just like to have some enthusiasm back for basic things like getting out of bed and doing stuff I enjoy. And it sucks that I need a pill to give me that but if the pill works then I will take it, just give it to me.

...yeah, I didn't make it out of bed for botany lab this morning. And I don't really feel like being up right now but I can't just sleep all day, no matter how little I want to do anything else. :(

Okay, I have exhausted my first box of holiday cards and tonight I plan to acquire another. So, once again:

Who wants a card?

If you got my first post, your card will be coming, don't worry. This is for people who missed that one. I'm totally willing to mail internationally, so don't let that stop you if you'd like one! If you have a wishlist, leave me a link to that with your address so I can pop something special in your card. :D

Comments are screened, of course.



My hands are freezing! It's getting to the point where I'm considering wearing fingertipless gloves while I'm on the computer because, gah, chilly.

I took my plant ID test after botany lecture today and he pretty much told me I nailed it, even though I couldn't remember the scientific names of most of the trees. I got all the common names, and almost all the extra credit trees, so I'm not worried about it. My mother came in to talk to the class about her valiant battles against the invasive purple loosestrife, and she told me that Dr. Aikman told her that I was his best student. *flutter* Somehow, I am at the top of my science classes. Forensics lab in 15 minutes, I'm not sure what the lab is today but they're usually fun.

I should go work out, but it's too damn cold to even consider changing in the locker room. I would freeze bits of me off. I missed the past two days on Wii Fit, I have to get my act together. Stupid being depressed, it messes everything up.

eta: Forensics was canceled. xD

- Reply to this meme by typing "hey girl hey!"
- I will then give you 3-5 words that remind me of you.
- Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

sweetxtc666 gave me these words: Music, Baking, Art, Generosity, Individuality.

Music is an easy one. If you know me at all you know I'm a music fiend. :D As of this moment, my iTunes collection contains 19,028 tracks. That's 51 days and 7 hours of nonstop listening. My covers collection alone tops 2650 songs; the count is a little fuzzy because I categorize acapella covers as acapella, not as covers, so it might actually be pushing 2700 songs. My five most played songs are A Lack of Color by Death Cab For Cutie (700 plays), I Love You. Let's Light Ourselves On Fire by the Mountain Goats (656 plays), Such Great Heights as covered by Benjamin Costello (yes, Elvis Costello's son. 478 plays), the Hedwig version of Wicked Little Town from the Hedwig and the Angry Inch soundtrack (470 plays), and The Trapeze Swinger by Iron and Wine (459 plays).

Right now my last.fm stats are all fucked up because I set it to also register my iTunes from my netbook, which Rachael uses and all she plays is shitty country music so it looks like I suddenly developed really bad taste. I'm just too lazy to fix the problem, and wayyyyy too lazy to delete every track that I haven't actually listened to myself. Nobody actually pays any attention to my last.fm, so it doesn't really matter, I guess.

Last year I put up a song a day as sort of an advent calendar treat thing. I think I'm going to do that again this year. I haven't been sharing as much music as I used to and that's sadmaking.


Baking is something I need to get back in the habit of doing. I used to bake a lot, but I've kind of slipped off that lately because, well, I've slipped off doing a lot of things that used to make me happy. And baking does make me happy! It's the only kind of science I enjoy: mix things together, apply heat, nom. :D Mostly I like baking cookies and brownies/blondies, but I've been known to try my hand at cakes and pies from time to time. I make a mean cherry bar. Hell, I should make cherry bars now so I can have some for breakfast tomorrow...


Art is not really something I have too much to do with, honestly. My own artistic abilities (aside from the literary) are pretty negligible. I can't even draw a decent chibi. I certainly appreciate the art others make, I just don't make much of it myself. Aside from, like, icons, which I take a pretty minimalistic approach to so probably shouldn't couint either.


Generosity is something I try to show as often as I can. I like sending stuff to people and doing stuff for people and generally making myself helpful and useful and giving people things. It's better to give than receive and all that jazz. It really doesn't take a lot of effort to make people happy, so why not put the effort in? This is something I don't get about the world.


Individuality is something I am glad I possess, because if the world had more than one of me, it would be exponentially more depressing. No but seriously, I just do my own thing, because trying to be other people doesn't work and leads to more appointments with my therapist. Being me isn't that bad. :D


Another meme, stolen from candlewaxdreams:
Name a fandom, and I'll tell you three pairings I love, two pairings I'd consider shipping and one pairing I hate.

TV was really good tonight. I'm going to be watching BBT as soon as I finish this post... so this post is done now. :D