And once again, Holmes group-watch is the best damn thing about my week, period. ♥ I have so much fun and I laugh so much and it's just incredibly good to fangirl out with like-minded people for a couple of hours. (Or... almost six hours, now. Wooboy.) And today I did a Good Thing as a member of the fandom and found a documentary scifichicx was looking for and uploaded it for the community, and she's drawing me art in return! I haven't had someone art on my behalf in YEARS, I'm so excited about this!

Of course, this entirely ruins my attempt to reassert a normal sleep schedule, but I really don't care because this is one of the few things that makes me happier than sleeping. :D Sun's coming up soon and it's supposed to hit 85 degrees, I'm probably going to sweat off a pound before I wake up. It's weather like this that almost tempts me into sleeping naked... but I've only done that a couple of times in my life, and I don't think 85 is bad enough to spur that on. (Maybe Sunday when it's supposed to hit 90. >.> )

Okay, quick meme answers and then I'm off to catch some Zs if I can:

16. Do you write romantic relationships? How do you do with those, and how “far” are you willing to go in your writing? ;)

I pretty much exclusively write romantic relationships. I'll write gen once in a while, but 95% of what I write involves people in love... or if not in love, then at least doing filthy things to each other. xD There was a time when I wrote porn like it was my job. That time has passed, now it's clearly only a hobby. I just much prefer people doing pleasant things together than people doing cruel things to each other.


Letters meme: Day 3 — Your parents

Dear Mom,

I'm sorry everything is getting on your nerves these days. It makes me really sad when you tell me I'm the only person in the family you don't want to kill, except I'm pleased that you don't want to kill me too. I do everything I can to make your life easier, I just wish it was enough to make an appreciable difference in how you feel every day.

I'm also really sad that I have to hide a significant portion of the truth about myself from you, but the last thing I need is to make you have a breakdown because the one person you can stand on a daily basis happens to be bisexual. I believe that you would love me anyways, I just have no intention of putting that belief to the test in case I'm wrong. Sometimes you're the only person in the family I don't want to kill, too, and I don't want to lose that.

Love,
your favorite offspring.


Dear Dad,

I know you think I'm scared of you. I'm not. You just make it really fucking hard to be in the same room as you sometimes. Also, because you're the one who found out I'm bisexual, I would really appreciate it if you could not harp on about how being gay is a sin every time Kurt has more than a few minutes on screen when we're watching Glee together. You could stand to be a little more like Burt Hummel, I think. You don't have to approve of me, just stop talking about it, for god's sake. It's not like I'm ever going to bring home a girlfriend to meet you.

I know that you're sick, and it's fucking with you every day, and that sucks, but I really wish you weren't so unpleasant to everyone in the family. Just... go on vacation or something. Go see your family in Massachusetts or Ohio or Florida or wherever, just be somewhere that isn't here for a few days. Maybe it'll make you happier. Mom honestly is afraid you're going to try hurting yourself and I can't force you to see a psychiatrist or talk about your issues like a normally emotional human being, so please figure out some way to deal with your shit so life can go back to normal around here and I don't have to deal with my sisters freaking out and my mother on the verge of a breakdown any more.

I love you, I just don't like you very much right now.

Love,
your eldest child.

[Poll #1587315]

Oh my god, I feel so wrong and terrible for what I am about to say, but... god DAMN, Shane grew up nicely. askldjkjd.

Anyways I am ridiculously excited for Weeds to come back, entirely because Shane is a BAMF and I am dying waiting to find out what the repercussions of his BAMFery are going to be. I could care less about the babydrama and Esteban, tell me stories about the Botwin boys. (That includes Andy, by the way.) Apparently Celia isn't coming back this season. I think I am happy about that because I was getting tired of her in a serious way.

...yeah, I'm still awake. At this point I think I'm going to have breakfast and then just sit up and read Proven Guilty until my eyelids can't stay open any more. I think this might be the second time I try to reset my sleep forcibly in a non-drugged way in a week, and that's pretty pathetic, but whatever, I make chronic insomnia look good, bitches. These bags under my eyes are the fashion statement of the summer. Authentic as fuck.

I'm pretty sure only one or two people on my friendslist even read the Dresden Files books, but I'm forced to ask this question even if no one answers:

If Harry sabotages electrical appliances, how the hell does he have such a broad knowledge of movie and TV based pop culture? I understand maybe he hits the cinema now and then, but it's not like he could have owned a VCR or picked up the habit of watching TV.

This is just bothering me more reading Proven Guilty because the movie references are flying fast and furious in this book.

I just realized I can either get a QC shirt or a copy of Bending the Willow for my birthday... and I'm leaning towards the book, as I usually do. Maybe I can beg my mother to buy one of them for me. It would be nicer if she would get the book because it's $45... which is probably the most expensive non-textbook book I will ever buy. But Jeremy Brett is so totally worth it. I am possibly a tiny bit pathetic over him.

I got a reply email from my roommate. She said she likes sleeping on the top bunk, so our room just got twice as spacious, lol. This will be her first time in America. She's only 19, I am going to feel so terribly ancient living with a teenager!

Right now I am at the point in not sleeping where I am too dizzy to read a book and too nauseous to watch anything... but I'm on the verge of hysterical giggles at nothing at all. I can't take a nap because I'll just sleep the rest of the day, and Mom said we could go see Knight and Day at 4. I generally dislike Tom Cruise but the commercials for that movie make it look far too much like something I'll enjoy... and it's the only thing worth seeing that I haven't already seen that's playing in town.

Well, maybe I could take a little nap if she'd promise to wake me up.


...oh, my mom is kind of cute. She thinks she's being persecuted for being a Christian because she's not being allowed to preach at the community garden that's on the grounds of a school. No Mom, nobody's allowed to proselytize on school grounds, it's not just because you're Christian. They wouldn't let the Jews or the Muslims or the Wiccans do it, either, you're not specially being singled out here because you're BFFs with Jesus.

Knight and Day was really surprisingly adorable for a spy action flick. I enjoyed it quite a lot. Usually I don't have much use for Tom Cruise, but he was really endearing in this role. Plus, if you look at him a little bit crosseyed, there's more than a passing resemblance to John Barrowman going on there, which I never noticed before. I like going to the movies with my mother. ♥

I am dead tired now, but I really want to stay up so I can participate in Granada group-watch tonight, even if I'm not totally sold on ustream. I guess I'm just going to try to finish reading Proven Guilty until 11:15...

I desperately want to throw heavy things at my backyard neighbors, because they keep setting off firecrackers which make the neighborhood smell unpleasant, and the sound is bothering me.

I'm not even sure if I'll be seeing fireworks tomorrow. I should probably spend the day doing that essay, like I keep telling myself to do, and not worry about fireworks one way or another. It's going to be revoltingly hot and humid all day long, chances are I'm just going to find a cool place to nap the afternoon away.

I am determined to stay awake for at least one episode of Holmes group-watch. It's getting harder to keep that determination up the closer it gets to 11:15, though.

I'm getting too old to skip sleep altogether, even for one night. This is not making me feel any better about my upcoming birthday. :/