They're doing a speed dating event on campus the Wednesday after we get back from break, and I'm just pathetic enough to seriously consider doing it. That's pretty much the definition of hopeless, isn't it?

I'm not sure if I'm just nervous or if I'm honestly starting to get depressed, but I feel like crap. I have a lot to be nervous about, I have two tests tomorrow that I don't feel ready for, but also I am just losing enthusiasm for everything now. I'm looking forward to break so I have an excuse to sleep for 14 hours at a time.

Part of me just wants to go smoke a bowl because that will probably make me feel better, but I can't, I have to study. And tomorrow after I'm done with my tests I have to come back here and write essays, because I'm not going to have time to do it on Thursday. These aren't even difficult essays, they just require a level of thought I'm not operating on right now. I'm finding it hard to give a fuck about evolution when I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning.

I don't know. I really just need to take a shower and calm the fuck down, I don't even know what's wrong with me.