Today, aside from being awesome and winning at things like Science and Religion and asking cute girls out, I also failed at not smoking. I went up to the smoker's table to have a cigarette thinking I was going to be a loser and all alone, but Evian was sitting up there in her car and invited me to sit with her so I talked to her and Mattie and Caleb for like a half an hour, and that almost completely de-stressed me from this paper anxiety. So I still have four essays to write, but I'm not anxious about them, and I had a really good time talking to Evian.

So I guess it wasn't social fail, just not-smoking fail. And I couldn't stand smelling like smoke, so I took a shower as soon as I got back into Dodge, and now I'm all relaxed and sleepy, so I'm going to go to bed now and wake up early tomorrow to do some studying for my Deviance midterm, which I'm not really worried about because I'm the only person in the class who passed the pre-midterm quiz. And then tomorrow afternoon I will write the rest of these essays, and I will not take longer than two hours to write any single one of them, so I will be done with them all by 10 and then I can do my French homework, and I'll do my Science and Religion reading at work on Friday. So I have a plan.

And Shane and I are going to go out next weekend, and I am still super excited about that, and I don't think I'm going to get any less excited about it as the week goes by, but I might get more nervous about it, because... I haven't been on a real date since 2007 and I don't know when it would be appropriate to go for the hand-holding and I'm not sure if I should take her out to dinner before/after the movie but there are apparently a lot of good vegetarian options in Ithaca so I would be able to if that seems like it would be a good idea...

The only bad thing is that I want to be like "FUCK YEAH I GOT A DATE" on Facebook, but then my father would ask who and I would be subjected to parental disapproval, even though he's known I'm bisexual for a couple of years now. I just don't need anyone raining on my parade, let alone people I'm related to who I wish would be happy for me. But everyone I've told so far has been really happy for me, so that's good!